Agnes Crowfoot-Marsh//D10//FIN

Sunlight makes its way to my face through the curtains, dancing on a cute nose. As soon as it touches my eyelashes, I wake up, blink and look around with my eyes wide open. Speaking of the eyes, I'm in love with them. They are just like my mother's: blue-grey, wide and smart. Every single moment of my life I feel like thanking her for presenting me with them.

Most of the teen girls spend half the day thinking about how monstrous they look, but I am happy to say I'm pleased with who I am. I may not be the sparkle of beauty in the district and in my family and my appearance isn't flawless, but I still love myself. It is important, isn't it? And above all, I like my golden blonde hair which is long, thick and wavy. When I was little, I thought it looked like corn in the field not far from our home.

Though I often think of myself as splendid, no one else seems to notice I'm even there. The reason of this is my shyness, I suppose. Some people think everybody is a bit shy, but most people can overcome it while the others tend to stay weird forever. I don't think so. In my opinion, shyness is something you're born with, something you're destined for. It's like a disease which spreads throughout your body and clings to it tightly, its claws deep in the middle of your soul. It is a thousand times harder for me and those like me to overcome their fears and throw away their problems. Every time I want to speak, I'm afraid I'll sound stupid, every time I want to talk to someone, I feel like I will be 'the third wheel'. I'm afraid of making a mistake a billion times more than other people I know. And I can't convince myself to think otherwise, so I just stopped struggling long ago.

I don't know if that's a unique personality trait or a paradox, but I'm not only shy, I am also highly self-centered at the same time. There are often moments when I catch myself in being selfish. I never think about the others, only about what's good for me. And I don't like this at all, so I always try to control it and think about what people around me need. I never refuse to give you a hand with something, just to make sure I can change and act kindly. Probably that's one of the reasons for me being so shy - I never wanted to show my true self (my worst self, actually) to anybody.

That's also why I'm no romantic person, perhaps. Many girls dream of a prince Charming when they grow up, start talking about boys, outfits and makeup. And I'm just someone who's not interested in it at all. The main goal for me is to finish school and find work to help my parents. Having a family is possible, but I'll think about it sometime in the future, when everything else is done.

I was born a long time ago, in a little house near a small farm where my parents work. They both look alike - blonde hair, grey eyes and strong arms. They are both level-headed, clever and sensible. They are both hard-working. And they both have good sense of humor and love their children - me and my twin sister. There has never been anything they don't have in common. They are a perfect match, they always were and they always will be.

Now for my sister. Our relationship is something they call 'perfect friendship'. We named ourselves 'ABB' (Always Best Buddies). My sister is the only person I actually open up to and someone who knows me better than anybody else. She even does the communicating part for me sometimes (if I am too shy to ask someone what time it is, for example). If I feel miserable and cry under the stairs, I know she will always be there for me to calm me down, and she knows I would do the same for her.

My very own self is not much to talk about. I was just born and lived almost happily ever after. Due to my shyness I never did anything worth describing. I just lived on and on, got good grades at school until I was 13. After that I became a lazy bones who didn't bother to do much, but my grades still were -and are- a lot higher than average. Now I keep living with my family beside me and a wearisome thought about being completely useless in my blonde head.