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nathaan Seam Resident 18 POSTS last seen Sept 17, 2017 20:23:55 GMT -5 is it bad im in love with tom holland?	caligula- d1 (fin) Aug 15, 2017 16:19:48 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by nathaan on Aug 15, 2017 16:19:48 GMT -5 caligula seventeen dove cameron
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is it bad im in love with tom holland?

caligula- d1 (fin) Aug 20, 2017 5:15:09 GMT -5

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Post by nathaan on Aug 20, 2017 5:15:09 GMT -5

I am just a failure to my parents.

I am just a robot to everyone else.


I just can't be a 'normal' kid for once. I won't ever be able to be 'normal'. My parents call 'normal' overrated anyways. I try to be the best, the one who is better than everyone else. That is what my parents expect of me. But it's hard. I get straight A's, I am a good career, I do extracurricular activities, but it just seems that nothing is good enough for them.

    Its like a race, the finish line is not that far away, and I am in first, but I never see the person behind me, and they snag the prize.

That seems to happen to me a lot. Getting so close to getting a 'good job' or 'i love you' from my parents, but it never comes because I have the silver.

    That's what the district doesn't see.

They think I have the perfect life. Almost straight 100's, a high standing in the career academy, captain of 3 sports, and president of 2 clubs, a pretty face, pure platinum blonde hair, icy blue eyes, a nice figure. They just don't see the neglect I have been getting over the years I have lived on Panem. I've heard almost all the insults possible from my parents.

Your too fat, lose weight.

Your too dumb, your grades need to be 100's.

Your too bad in your sports, practice.

Your peers in your clubs aren't fond of you, loosen up.

I never heard the end of it. The comments just kept on coming from them, each blow hitting lower and lower.

I can't escape the brutality of their words, the neglect of my feelings. I can't escape it.

I know now that I have little love in my life.

☫

Growing up, I didn't really feel like I had a family. My parents were at work the most of my childhood, and when I saw them, it was always them criticizing me about my flaws. I felt like I wanted to die.

Then I met her. She, or, as her name is Blair. I met her only a little while ago, when I was around 15. I, at that time, a robot to the district, even then, people thought I had a good life. I liked to take walks, to escape the realm of reality. It was the only thing that kept me sane, until Blair came around.

She is the light to my dark, the yin to my yang. We compliment each other.

Her black hair to my blonde. Her brown eyes to my blue.

We look like polar opposites, but were the correct puzzle pieces.

She was walking, and I was walking. We talked. We fell in love.

It is as simple as that.

I was a robot most of my life, and when I met her my emotions exploded like a volcano.

Love. Happiness.

It all showed for the district to see. But they didn't see, as we were in a secluded area.

She was beautiful, kind, and she didn't pressure me into anything. She thought I was amazing the way I was.

I never thought I would find a person that loved me so much to say something I had never heard in my life.

She is my saving grace.

My darkness has now become gray.

My light has brightened.

My life has meaning.

☫

Last Edit: Aug 22, 2017 18:48:07 GMT -5 by nathaan

nathaan Seam Resident 18 POSTS last seen Sept 17, 2017 20:23:55 GMT -5 is it bad im in love with tom holland?	caligula- d1 (fin) Aug 22, 2017 23:06:10 GMT -5 via mobile Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by nathaan on Aug 22, 2017 23:06:10 GMT -5 I feel like she is done! 😃

Deleted 0 POSTS last seen Apr 24, 2024 17:16:09 GMT -5	caligula- d1 (fin) Aug 22, 2017 23:24:18 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Deleted on Aug 22, 2017 23:24:18 GMT -5 "It is as simple as that." love love love <3