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Deleted 0 POSTS last seen Apr 19, 2024 8:23:23 GMT -5	antonine ; d10 wip Sept 7, 2017 10:35:39 GMT -5 Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2017 10:35:39 GMT -5 antonine de morande ; evil fuckboy -- 18, male, district 10
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antonine ; d10 wip Mar 1, 2018 5:37:15 GMT -5

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A part of my heart bleeds with it -- we both know it's wrong. My heart and I, a single pulse, a beat and I hear it lying. A second,

and I no longer care.

Recreating that type of love has never been my true intentions, and maybe I should have started with that. And maybe I should have loved her; if I could, I don't know if that would be my answer anymore. There's a reason we live, whether it be for love or loss or just to say we did but I'm beyond it all, I can't.

Not anymore, not like that. And I've always known, before the arrangement, during, and I'll still know after, that I might kill her one day involuntarily but still me all the same. There's guilt and shame and I've had my fair share, and god if it were that easy I wouldn't need to hear from him again.

Maybe I'm over reacting, maybe I'm the one broken. A girl made of the feeling lavender creates and if I could ever love a woman like her, I still can't tell if it would be lorn on me.