This isnt actually a life update I just have many feelings!!

I really didn't want to make a post in this board bc I hate drawing attentiont to myself, and it just always feels presumptuous posting here -- like I'm expecting people to have missed me and idk man, that's totally not the case at all. because this is just going to be too rambly for anyone to care about!!!! i'm sorry in advance!!!!

I want to come back because I missed writing

Writing was put on hold for a while for me, and I know life is never going to settle down and thus I'm never going to have near enough time to write in the capacity I want to, but that's something I can accept. honestly, the last two months or so I've been overwhelmed with this indescribable /want/ to write and I've just neglected it for so long through fault of my own that I'm not going to let it sit in the background any longer.

Look I tried NaNo last year and it was a flop. not only from being out of practice but also just .... having this inner feeling that I suck so much more now than I used to. Plus I feel like writing /alone/ isn't working for me at this moment in time. I want to grow again and be a part of something bigger than just me

SO THAT'S WHERE YOU ALL COME IN!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE WRITE WITH ME I AM CRAVING JUST /MAKING THINGS/!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end game is to feel adequate, and challenge myself in ways that I haven't in a while.
I guess deep down I don't really believe I'm going to come to a point where I feel happy with my writing, because that's never been the case, unfortunately

I just truly want to write and as a result I'm probably not going to be "socialising" to the degree I used to.... like, it's hard to explain, but that all feels very far apart from where I am right now. I just want to thread and build words and if anyone has the patience to humour me and my lacklustre attempts at writing for a couple of posts please hit me up yeah??? xxxxxxx

I have slack but idrk how to use it either

srsly if i message you out of the blue wanting to thread it's because I was stalking your posts and thought they were brilliant please don't blcok me

TLDR; please thread with me I miss writing.