You are a Shaw. In the past, when a girl was born into the family, the men would do little to hide their disappointment. Your father was one such man. Girls are weak, is what they would think when a girl would come screaming into the world. Girls are a disappointment, is what they would say within earshot. These words were screamed at you, drilled into you, into your siblings, your sisters, your cousins- you were cattle for the fodder. To be sold off. To be sent away and forgotten like Astrid Shaw had been until she was reaped.
But things did not change until Cassiopeia Shaw was reaped and almost won the Games.
It showed that the Shaw Woman were not ones to be trifled with and it set a new bar for you to reach. You no longer had to beg to be trained by your father- he previously claimed he could only afford to send your brothers but following your Cousins near win you found yourself in lessons nearly a week later. You think your father fears you but defintely notice the shift in the family after that day.
Perhaps that why until you were 15 that you felt like you could get away with anything. Your teenager years bringing rebel tendency's despte your parent leninece- perhaps that why when you were 16 you had your baby girl. Your parents were disappointed and angry- you had thought yourself invincible. Your father cast you out and you moved in with your aunt, you refused to give up your child.
Not because you wanted to rebel, but because for the first time in your life you felt love that was unconditional.