Re: Autumn Summerleaf D7 Done

Re: Autumn Summerleaf D7 Done Oct 27, 2012 13:21:30 GMT -5

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Post by Sage on Oct 27, 2012 13:21:30 GMT -5

Autumn Summerleaf

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

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Dear Braedyn,[/font][/color]
How have you been? I miss you so much here in district 7, its so lonely without anyone to talk to anymore. I know you left because you were unhappy here but sometimes I wish you'd stayed. I feel like I could have made you happier if you had. I guess now we'll never know. You'll be pleased to know that I've opted to grow my hair out the way you liked it when I was little. It's now down past my shoulders. Oh, Braedyn if you could see it, I bet you would love it. I've changed so much since you left here. The only thing that's maybe remained the same are my soft blue eyes. I've grown up a lot, big brother. My face no longer has the childish appearance that it had when you left but its slimmer and more elegant. You used to tease me about having no chest but guess what? I got one. I've also slimmed down quite a bit, the baby fat, thankfully, is gone. I guess though that it would be expected since I'm now 24 years old.

Sometimes I ask myself what I could have done to make you stay but I know that no matter what I could have done you still would have left. You weren't meant to be in the district. I guess I'm better suited. I've still got my long legs that you used to bug me about but now I find myself missing your taunts. If only I knew where you were, I might come out and find you but I know you wouldn't want me to. So I guess I'll stay here and let my skin tan.

I still wear that necklace you gave me for my 17th birthday. The one with the leaf on it that sparkles in the sunlight. It's my favorite piece of jewelery. It's also the only piece of jewelery I'm allowed to wear at work. On my off time, I still bum around in sweats and a tank top because I feel like it. I don't wear dresses anymore because they remind me too much of you.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,

You'll be happy to hear that I've decided to follow my passion for healing. You always told me how much you liked it when I helped you get better so I decided, in your honor, I'd become a nurse. My personality, I think you'd discover, has changed a lot since you left. I'm more reserved with the people around me but I still have that great sense of humor you loved. If mom were still here, she'd say that I'm not the outgoing little girl she used to know. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, after you left, mom got really sick. The doctors said it was from some sort of disease but I think she died because she missed you. I'm not trying to guilt you out or anything, I'm just saying the facts.

I'll admit, big brother, I'm afraid of being alone now. Remember when I was little, you used to come into my room and read me bedtime stories after mom and dad went to bed? I miss those times. I'm mostly afraid of being alone because I got my heart broken by that jerk Mikhael and now I feel lonely. Dad isn't usually home because he's still trying to make ends meet for us. I've become close with a few of my friends because I hate being alone and they're often over at our house.

When it comes to guys, big brother, I'm wary. I don't trust them because of Mikhael. He hurt me big brother, he hit me and he was abusive. The only way I got out of that relationship was by going to the peace keepers. They took him away and I haven't seen him since, thank goodness, but I'm scared, I'm scared that one day he's gonna come back and get revenge. I'm thinking I might ask one of the peace keepers how to defend myself just in case he does come back or I end up with another abusive boyfriend. You never know when it will come in handy.

And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

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Since you left, a lot has happened. First of all, as I said before, mom died. I've also started working at the hospital. Its my dream job and I love it. At the moment, I'm treating a patient with some sort of lung disease that's making breathing hard for him. I give him medicine everyday and check his breathing to make sure he's breathing and if he's not, I give him a shot of medicine that will clear his lungs. I feel so bad for him because he's suffering and you know me, I cry over a dead animal. I still do.

When dads home, he's tired but he still loves me. Even though I'm twenty-four, I still live at home because otherwise dad would be all alone in the world with mom gone. He's always got a smile on his face but I can tell that he's hurting inside. He misses you a lot. I've heard him cry a few times for you because you're his son although he'd probably get mad at me because I told you this. I don't care, you deserve to know that we still care about you.

In the weeks leading up to moms death, she cried a lot and refused to eat because she was so upset. She loved you. Every night, after dad had gone to bed, I'd sneak in and read her bedtime stories just like you used to do for me and she seamed to be at peace during those times. For a little while she seamed to be doing better but pretty soon, she took a turn for the worse and died. I cried for one of the few time's I've ever cried for our mom when she died. I loved mom. She was my best friend. Anyways, I guess thats all there is to report for now. I love you and be safe.
your sister
Autumn
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