Post by Penguin on Jun 28, 2017 20:47:10 GMT -5
Whenever I tell people that I am afraid of cats they usually
think that I am joking. I remember the
moment that fear was instilled in me vividly. At seven years old, I was alone
after school and a wild feline clawed my arm. The cat’s talons pierced straight
through my sensitive skin and crimson moved down my arm as fast as I’ve ever
seen. I don’t remember the rest, but the
scar hidden underneath my right sleeve reminds me every day of the
unforgettable fear that was instilled in me on that day.
Some say that fear is visible in a person’s eyes, but that’s
just an outdated saying to me. My eyes are as dark as spruce wood, and like a
one-way mirror, no one can read my thoughts through them. Instead, people read my
lips. I’m told I have a healthy smile; dimples pop out of cheeks from seemingly
nowhere. Garnering compliments of the sort is not unordinary for me; typically
my mood is a catalyst for my frequent grinning expressions.
From a young age, I’ve identified myself as an optimist.
Seeing people smile has always fed my mood more than any feast could ever. I
figure I might as well try to do something to make the world a better place.
Since I work at the textile mill here in the District, all the clothes that I
make for myself are bright colors to spread that mentality as best I can.
Sometimes people try to give me shit about it, but who cares? It’s just people
trying to josh around with me right?<o:p></o:p>
Everyone gets a bit of fun poked at them, right? When people
try and pick at me they usually make short jokes or something about my
crayon-colored clothes. I wouldn’t say that I get bullied though, I just end up
being the brunt of a joke a fair bit. My favorite name that they give me is ‘the
leprechaun’ due because of that wonderful duo. But I do have to say this: if there was one trait
that I wish I had I would wish to be just average height. As a seventeen-year-old
male being 5’6” is not very attractive.
My height does happen to be disadvantageous when it comes to
my romantic life as well. Maybe my moves aren’t the sharpest either, but I do
try to be the ladies’ man. The word ‘try’ is the key word in that last
statement because unfortunately a lot of the time the girls don’t want any ‘Braxton
Action’. Okay, maybe I should really rethink that phrase; the puns don’t
usually help much either. But, one day I will find my match (hopefully)!
Although I do my best to send positive vibes, that’s not
always who I am. It’s more who I want to be. The phrase “fake it ‘til you make
it” resonates heavily for me. It’s not
easy sometimes when I think about my parents. My father wasn’t happy enough
when I was born so he left and my mother wasn’t happy enough when he left so
since then she’s been addicted to any drug she could get her hands on. I don’t
know which is worse, but I do know this: the scar that my parents have left me
with is worse than the one that cat gave me. They left me with one option: to
ignore them.
On the bright side, I at least have some pretty good friends.
You know what they say: “friends are family.” I’m not trying to say this to be cliché,
but I’d take a bullet for them. I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve even smuggled
food from the local market for some before and in our District, the
Peacekeepers punish. It may not have been one of my smartest decisions looking
back on it, but I wasn’t gonna let family starve on the streets.
One of my biggest aspirations in life is to become a big brand
name designer like all of those Capitolites you see on the big screens walking
on the main streets of the Capitol. Sometimes
I just take a minute and run my hand through my medium-length, swept brown hair
and think to myself that I’ve got what it takes. I want to be known for
something worth a lifetime. At other times, I’m so certain about what I want to
be, but I for sure want to do something big in my life. I’m not saying that I have pro-Capitol standpoint
because that’s not my point, but they do just so happen to be the ones with all
the money, which kinda sucks. But all dreams are achievable...
...and I will do everything in my power to do the best for me and everyone around me.
Other: oDair!!!
