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Lilly Ion Age 15 district 5
I shook with a start in my bed. Like usual my deep breathing woke me up. I was in the room with no windows. My parents say that it is so my breathing is easier ,but I know no one would want to sleep with someone who wheezes at night. Well at least I had my own room. At least my parents were good enough to get me a bed imported from another district where their smog is not as bad. That cost them a fortune. I know it. It helps me sleep though. I have to try again is my first thought. That is what I was doing again. Trying , trying to stick with a job.

I slowly got out of bed. My breathing started to be less heavy. For some reason my breathing was lighter during the day than at night. I had no clue why. When I came out of my room. I know my older siblings ,and parents are off to work while my younger siblings are still sleeping. My parents don't know about this job try. They figure I am just better baby sitting my younger siblings. I would except they go out side any ways where I can't go. I grab a bowl of cereal. I chug it down with 3 teaspoons of milk ,and I grab my scarf. I wrap it around my mouth ,and nose. It helps me breathe. I exit the house.

Already my breathing gets worse. I know my face is turning red, but at least I can breathe. I start walking towards the job I am signed up for. My breathing becomes a bit worse. I know that this job is just a mile away. So I sit down on the bench near by to catch my breath ,and repositioned my scarf. I know I have enough time for this. Wrong decision though right off the bat. As I am positioning my scarf it falls down. I realize how hot the scarf was making me so I keep it on for a little longer. I get up ,and start walking with out it. I know I am pushing it ,but fresh well air that does not go through a scarf felt good while being out side.

I continue to walk. I am getting a bit dizzy ,but I know I can handle myself. I fall after tripping on the rock. I blame being dizzy ,and not watching where I was going. I am blanked out for another 20 minutes. I wake up on the floor. I grab my scarf ,and look around while I am still on my back. I see red stuff on the dirt road. I realize it is my blood. My eyes instead of rising just get tired ,and close as I thought. Should I even try to get to work. I don't even know how long I have been on the floor. Besides I think my head needs medical attention. I get up ,and run. I am just crying now. I dodge the house doctor place ,and run towards a old factory place just outside of town. I can't do anything right. I know I should have gotten my head looked at ,but I wanted no one to know it will sure get through the town. I can't go home yet my siblings will notice no matter how young they are. I sit there crying. I don't know why I just had it. I know my crying sounds like a dyeing cow. My breathing is getting harder again. My scarf is off again. I just don't care anymore. Tears continue to stream down my face, but I know I can't cry to make noise anymore. My breathing became too hard again.

Lilly Ion District 5 age 15
I continue to sob until I hear something foot steps. I hold my breath which due to every day life ,and all was not really hard. Shit did my siblings follow me? No way they would have helped if I fell. What if they just did not care, Or even worse what if they went to go get a house doctor. My eyes widened. Shit this did not need to go through town of how Lilly Ion is just a piece of useless junk. Who she can't even stay in the house she has to go around acting like she can work. We all knows she can't. This hits me harder. The worse thought is it getting to my parents. Oh how they will feel disgraced. I have held my breath a little too long. I let the air escape me ,and I breathed normally again. What done is done.

The feet's owner spoke up . "Hello! If there is anybody out there, um... I will try to help you, if you want to be helped. Uh... If you do want to be helped, could you make any sign to help me find you?" I get a little scared now. Yeah no maybe I should just stay quiet. If I died it was better off that way. If this person finds me congrats to finding a worthless person. I get down on the floor I sit there. My arms wrapped around my legs. I would try ,and stop the flow of blood from my head ,but at this moment I did not care. let me die I think to myself. There is nothing left. I feel dizzy again. obviously blanking out does not help too long I think to myself.

Lilly Ion district 5 age 15
I continue to just sit there. I did not want to be noticed. Nope it was my time. Yes my parents will be better off with out another useless person to feed, but maybe if I don't die I should just run away ,and never look back. Yeah that would work. Other districts look like they have cleaner air. Even if can truly never be a part of their community I will be able to work ,and hunt for my self. My lungs will be fine there.

What happens next makes my stomach drop. It looked like a adult who was coming in. Ugh no I did not need an adult telling me what to do. I kept my eyes focused on him. When he spoke I knew he was no way a adult." Hey. I'm here to help you. What's your name?" Yeah an adult would not ask for my name. he must be either younger than me or around my age. Perhaps he will understand that I don't want to see a adult right now. Then he speaks again.

"Um, we need to get you to a doctor. Quickly. There's one nearby, I think. Do you want me to help you get there? Or do you want the doctor to come here." Nope stand corrected. I shake my head. " Nope I ---" I take another wheezing breath." am fine. The name is Lilly." I take another breath." Listen kid I rather not see any adults right now I am a little put out." I take another breath talking was totally harder out side." If you don't mind leave." I just needed to be alone. Alone was my thing lately. Alone that described me.

Lilly ION district 5 age 15
I listen to everything the kid said. At first he sounded offended , and I must admit I tried to breathe in quick enough to tell him I did not mean to offend him, but he talked again. He tried to cheer me up. On how everyone haves a reason to live. Yeah , but does he even know why I am here. I continued to breathe. It was hurting a bit, and even very tiring. I decided to just turn around. I did not want to go on talking to this kid so I turned around resting my head on my hand. I felt too tired to even speak back. yes kid leave , leave , leave , leave. my family is better off with out another person to feed ,and honestly the whole of panem.

Lilly Ion District 5 age 15
I sit there my heart beat going slower. My eyes are slowly closing. Tears seep through my eyes. I don't know what else to do now. I am completely useless well maybe I can save a kid by volunteering for the games , but even that may just her my district by being killed off first then perhaps they hurt the districts who's tributes die off too quick to allow them to have fun. I hear shuffling of feet. Leave I think. Just leave I am wasting your time. I don't say this for two reasons I can't when my breathing is already a little shallow at least not easily. Next I sort of want him to stay. I have not had someone show interest in me. I know it is not intimate interest , but it is a friendship out side of my house hold. I wipe my cheeks. I feel them they are warm , and probably straight red. Not like pink , but like a red apple.

I am ugly due to the allergies no wait just due to me being ugly. My personality is ugly. He starts talking again about how fine he will not take me to the hospital I give a sigh of relief the best I can. Then my stomach drops again. He won't leave. Although it drops it also flies up. Then he says I don't have to be this way. I am though. It is not like the capitols hair where they change it every day. He puts a blanket over me , and when I hear my name I am not depressed about it. He offers a pillow. I shake my head. I grab his hand pulling him next to me. I rest my head on his shoulders. I did not want him to leave for some reason. I felt this urge to be near someone.

Lilly Ion Age 15 District 5
I sat there . It felt nice to have someone this close. Not only close , but we were out side. He was not afraid of my breathing. I don't know why I am trusting this kid probably because he is only a kid. Just a kid like me. Perhaps I am getting delusional from the allergic reaction. I don't know I just sit there. he speaks up. He asks if there was anything he can do. I decide not to talk. I nestle my head on his shoulder some more. I close my eyes. I did not want this moment to end. I knew eventually my common sense will tell me to run away from this random person, but not yet I will wait. I enjoy this moment. I have been waiting for it for too long.