Alexis Moon capitol [FIN]

Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie
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Alexis Moon capitol [FIN] Mar 22, 2013 13:02:59 GMT -5

Post by Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie on Mar 22, 2013 13:02:59 GMT -5

Name: Alexis Moon
Age: 16
Gender: Female
District/Area: The Capitol
Appearance:

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKIN AT MY HAIR MY LIFE NO LEAVE ME ALONE.

Personality:

JUST GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE I WANT TO BE ALONE, I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!

History:

WHY DO YOU CARE IT AIN'T YOUR LIFE SO STOP SNOOPING

Codeword: oDair
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read the comment below for the real bio

Last Edit: Mar 23, 2013 2:16:19 GMT -5 by Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie

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Alexis Moon capitol [FIN] Mar 22, 2013 13:26:15 GMT -5

Post by Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie on Mar 22, 2013 13:26:15 GMT -5

~Apperance~

I look through the old picture album that I took with me, why did I even take it with me? I didn't want to remember the family who threw me away. Though I wanted to remember the happy little girl smiling on the pictures below my face. A few tears stroll down my tan skin and fall onto the paper and onto my thin nimble fingers.

Why couldn't I smile these days the way I used to smile the days before? Why didn't I look like the pretty little career in the picture? I knew the answer, but does anybody else?

My brown eyes vibrate as another tear comes down my hollow cheek, why doesn't it stop, why can't it go away? I knew how it would all go away though they won't let me, they never let me find the peace I need in this world.

I brush my curly brown hair out of the way as I flip threw more pictures. I smile and hug my siblings there, something I would never do these day's. Though would I ever regret not doing that for them?

I can't find anything in common with that bunch of sunshine. I feel like a gray cloud in a thunder storm, though the smiling girl tells me to look at myself, to see the beauty I have. Though the frown on my face say's something else something very different. It tells the little girl to go away, to learn the hard ship in a cruel world, though that girl was me and I smiled like that before, but not anymore.

The redness around my eyes itches. that's what you get for crying something tells me that it was the tears. Only I had to keep crying, I had to keep those rings they are a part of me, like everything else.

Everyone asks me why do you look so sad? I look sad because I am, because that is me just like everything else is. I look sad and alone, they are right, but they don't understand...or do they?

My choppy hair tells you everything you need to know, though my face extends your knowledge way to much. You can already know my disorder by the looks, by everything about my features, but most important, by the missing smile on my face.

Why am I so skinny? Why am I so short? I don't eat enough, that's what everybody tells me. I think skinny is good, though they say it is unhealthy. Do I look unhealthy? No I don't I know that for sure. I am as healthy as possible...or at least as healthy as I can be here.

~Personalty~

Why am I this way? Why am I the person I become? I want to know the answers to so many questions, just I don't want to ask. I want to know and know and know, but I don't want to learn and learn and learn. I wish I could understand the things that goes on around me. I wish I understood the reason for the games. I wish I could wish upon a star, like I always do and it would come true, because what good is a wishing star when it doesn't come true?

Can somebody tell me why I spend my days crying? No only I can, and I no one will ever know... no one except me,myself,and I. No one will ever no what happened, I won't let them know. They don't have the right to know, it's not there life, it's mine. They will never know, because they will also never understand. Just because we are in an Insane asylum, doesn't mean they will understand.

How can I sit day after day not talking only crying. how can these people think they can help, when they can't. No one will ever be able to help be me get over my pain and invisible scars in my soul. Does anybody also feel the scars? I don't think so they are very special scars, that are my burden to carry forever.

Will somebody tell me why everybody, want's to talk, when I rather stay silent and cry my eye's out? Will somebody tell me why these horrible people want to help me. They can talk to me, but I will never talk to them, never in my life.

My disorder or as I call it my nightmare is Dysthymia. A mood disorder, something that causes major depression. Though I was always this way and nothing changed. They say it is a part of my disorder, it can cause minor amnesia from your old personalty.

I don't have a problem. I'm just me and it is useless to try and help. You can try all you might, but I won't talk, I will only yell at you if you try to get information about me, out of me. I will only tell you to leave me alone in my misery, if I can't have the peace I seek.

I seek to rest, to give up my miserable life. I don't know how I did it before, but right now I had enough. Enough of it all, enough of the rants about there problems, enough of people treating me as if I were a child. I am not a child, I am Alexis and I want to depart this world, but they think they can fix me, when they can't.

Will I ever get passed these dry tears? Will I ever get past these restless nights? Will I ever learn to love and smile again? I wish i could, but I can't no matter how hard I try. Will someone ever save me from this misery? Yes and only one person none other than god himself will be able to save me, from the devil's curse.

My life is a straight line that goes on forever into the sadness. The deep pool that drowns me in my own tears. They will never go, and the ocean will keep getting bigger and deeper as the day's go bye.

My pain, my life, my world and nobody else's. Nobody understands, even if they try as hard as they can. I guess I can say this is my life for as long as I live and nothing you can do will ever change that.

~History~

My little sister and I used to live in the heart of District one. I treated her badly, and don't know if I would ever forgive myself for that, because now I don't have her. I lived a terrible life, before and after the accident that changed my life. I lived in a way nobody should ever live.

My parents always pushed me to be the best and never accepted anything below perfect. The beated me and hit me till I was screaming and begging foe mercy. They would torture us and make us pull our way through the hardship, even though we would have rather stayed hidden in our closets.

My poor little innocent sister who never deserved that, though could I say that I didn't deserve those harsh beatings? No I couldn't. I would always disobey my parents and let my sister take the blame. I would tease her that she isn't tough enough for our family, when she cried, but know i'm the one crying, the one wishing for somebody to finally let my soul travel into another world.

I was tough, but always filled with a deep sadness down inside of me. The deep sadness that would let the tears come out and let them fall down my cheek. My sister would be the one laughing at those times. I hated that she laughed, I hated that she laughed at my sadness, I was the better one in the family.

I remember those family bonding days, where we would sit all together and laugh and smile for the camera, when nobody ever wanted to.

Why did we do that? I never knew and never will, I only guessed to look like a normal family. Though we never will ever be a normal family...at least not with me in it. I will always stop us from ever being normal.

What is life like without your best friend? I always asked myself this question when I was younger. Though know I know the answer when I don't want it anymore. My best friend is dead and it's my fault. She was my only friend and I killed her whole family off.

Why do houses have to be flammable? If they weren't I wouldn't be so sad. I would have my best friend back and she would have her family as well.

Why did I have to play with matches? Why did I burn a house down? I wish I could reverse, I wish I could turn the clock back around. I wish, I wish, and I wish. That's all I can do for now. Though this is one wish that will never come true, so I can toss it into the pile of impossible wishes.

I became unstable as you can see, though I always was unstable and impossible. Only now i'm worse much worse. I can't stop crying, my eyes are red from the water my tears provide. I don't think they will ever stop being the red owl eyes they are.

My parents just have to hear from a friend about this asylum here in the capitol. They just have to know about this hell and just have to send me here.

They dragged me on the train as I kick and scream my head of saying that I don't want to go...that I want to stay here and continue my lovely life. Though would my life really be much better if i was still at home?

What am I doing here? I ask myself that very question everyday at the asylum, though everyone tells me this place will help, but will it? I wanted to go, I wanted to go, just not back home.

Someday's I would find myself with a weapon in my hand. Or maybe somewhere on the edge of a cliff wanting to finally say goodbye, but they won't let me. They had someone following me since I tried to jump off a cliff, when I first arrived.
They will always be watching me never letting there eyes fall.

My life here is dull. With the guards and the quite sobs, I just wished they would go away, but the devil won't release it's grip on me.

Last Edit: Mar 23, 2013 2:15:33 GMT -5 by Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie

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Alexis Moon capitol [FIN] Mar 23, 2013 2:54:47 GMT -5

Post by Deleted on Mar 23, 2013 2:54:47 GMT -5

Hey Minie!

If she were to be sent anywhere for her mental disorders, she would be sent to District 6 for their Institute of Psychology. Otherwise, they have hospitals in District 1 that would be just as useful as ones in the Capitol.

Please fix this somehow and reply when she's done. Thanks!

Saph

Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie Veteran Member 1,646 POSTS Pronouns: She/Her last seen Apr 30, 2024 12:42:04 GMT -5	Alexis Moon capitol [FIN] Mar 23, 2013 5:41:50 GMT -5 Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Hafen d4 ⚓︎ minie on Mar 23, 2013 5:41:50 GMT -5 Hi saph she is part of Kire's Mania And Melancholy plot so she is sort of supposed to be in the capitol
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Alexis Moon capitol [FIN] Mar 23, 2013 14:49:47 GMT -5

Post by Deleted on Mar 23, 2013 14:49:47 GMT -5

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