Nixie Brookshire// District 4

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To say I use my body to my advantage would be an understatement. I know that its why I get away from things (that and my daddy’s money). I know that its why the boys stare when I walk by and why grown men nearly trip over their feet. Shoulder length blonde hair, eyes that rival the sea on a clear day, they’re all wonderful things that can get you noticed…but I won’t lie as say that my over developed curves aren’t the first thing men see. It’s frustrating to know that I am so young and so top heavy already. They hurt my back, they make it hard to train, and they make it hard to do anything but become eye candy. I hate them, but they do get me out of things.

The rest of me is pretty average, and honestly I think if you took away my chest you might even say I’m a little bigger boned that most girls in District 4. I’m well fed, I don’t skip meals, so that might be the problem. Mother says I’m “healthy” but I think I could stand to drop at least 10 lbs. Other than that I find myself standing a typical five feet six inches and that’s hardly something to brag about. Most girls I know are lithe and quick in the water, me I’d rather sit on the shore and watch. I’m a bit of a prissy girl, I won’t lie.

I’m a a social butterfly, bouncing from friend to friend, I do have a special group though. Adva and Talya are my best friends, they’re twins born only a few days after me. We’ve grown up together and even though I’m an only child I consider them my sisters. I always wanted an older brother, or someone who could have taught me that the actions I make do have consequences. Lately I just do what I want and with a sniffle or bat of my eye my father cleans up the mess. That’s what happens when daddy owns a large portion of the boats that do the fishing. Well really the Capitol owns them but he manages them. Either way we’ve never gone wanting.

You could say I’m spoiled, it’s pretty much true. I’m used to getting my way when it comes to anything. Be it boys or a new dress, I pout my lips and ask oh so nicely, and people normally cave into whatever it is I want. My laughter ringing out around me with joyous giggles and thank yous when it happens, even if I’m spoiled I’m always polite (at least if it benefits me). You’d think that with all the careers around that I’d be aching to train with them but really I know if I’m called that someone else who wants the fame will step forward. I’m not a killer, I’m a beauty.

That’s not to say that mother and father didn’t try to get me to at least learn some sort of skill just in case I was selected. Tridents, swords, bows, they all felt funny in my tiny hands. It wasn’t comfortable being violent like that. My strength was in my words. The quick sarcastic comments that would slip out, cutting deeper than any blade…you could say I’m self serving with my wit. Who knows maybe it’s the reason most girls don’t like me…

In school I pay attention to what the teachers say and let them fill our head with Capitol issued information without really fussing too much. I know that a lot of what they say can’t be right, but as long as daddy and mommy have things together and I’m not going without I can’t really complain. No one I’ve ever been close to was ever selected for The Games, in fact the whole concept of being involved more than just a spectator is so abstract that I’m not sure I fully comprehend it. Yes it’s horrible that so many children die but isn’t it just how it’s supposed to be?

Father has spent his years with his family boats, working the books and keeping the numbers straight. The Capitol owns them, but he makes sure all the boats are in use and being well taken care of. It’s a good paying job, one of the best actually, and though some people think we’re in the Capitol’s pocket its more he isn’t afraid to do what is needed to keep us well off. I’ll probably take over the business when I am old, if I don’t marry a nice old man.

I love my family, I love my life. Maybe I’m a bit naïve about everything, but it’s never stopped me from having a good time. Isn’t that all we can do? Just live life to the fullest while we have it and not worry about things out of our control? The world is never going to be alright, but what can I do? I’m just a silly girl who loves the shore.