marcellus rhodes. d11 resub cb
Jan 5, 2022 14:04:02 GMT -5
Post by arctic on Jan 5, 2022 14:04:02 GMT -5
I've always been told that my heart was bigger than my brain and that it was a bad thing."Marcellus, you're stupid."
I know."Why didn't you think of that?"
I don't know. I guess they thought of it first."Can't you just use your brain for once?"
I'm trying."You're too goddamn nice, kid."
Is that a bad thing?"Why are you so nice in a world of so much hate?"
Yes, it is.'
And the thing is, I believe them. As much as I don't want to, I'm being told the same thing over and over. And I believe it. It's so cruel that the world has so much hate, yet people want to promote kindness as if it's an option. I've worked to that goal a lot, and it's never come true.
Being stupid is another thing I've just come to accept. It's in this pit in the back of my head. It tells me that I can't do the things I want to do, like how I used to want to work in a few of the bee farms. I thought bees were just incredible. But there was the voice that told me I wouldn't be able to do it. I'd drop something, and then I'd accidentally break the hive. I'd get myself stung and spend the entire rest of the day telling myself how stupid I was.
Mom would probably see me at my low and try to bring me back up. Pet my head, tell me that I tried and that's all I can ask for! But I can't just try forever. That's unrealistic and stupid.
- stupid and conscious about it
- just wants to be friends and give hugs. loves bees!
- wants to do volunteer work in some fashion, unsure what he can do that can sustain itself and that he wont fuck up
- has a DOG
- does the fun thing