sunflowers don't bloom for sinners [ines hg sim]

ines izar d11a 🖤 cait
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sunflowers don't bloom for sinners [ines hg sim] Dec 29, 2023 20:44:46 GMT -5

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Post by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait on Dec 29, 2023 20:44:46 GMT -5

“You’ve gotta be joking.”

It’s like the simulation can read my mind – though that’s probably the point I guess. District Three being all technological and stuff, I shouldn’t be surprised that it’s Yani standing in front of me, admittedly looking a little more disjointed and grumpy than usual.

We’d been becoming closer ever since I’d found the courage to go to her house and tell her who I was – the full story, the only one besides Nekane who knew. We’d pinky sworn to keep it that way, and she’d confided in me about the nightmares that have plagued her all her life.

I didn’t know if Nekane knew, if she’d figured it out yet, but she never said anything about it, so I never told her. I continued sneaking off to be a normal teenager and have a normal social life, all with the silent understanding hanging in the air.

Yani isn’t really my cousin. She’s not really my friend, either. She’s just a trophy I’m here to protect.

I dive behind a table, throwing a knife at the figure and crouching as low as possible to remain hidden for as long as possible.

ines attack "yani"
4uUnnB6dKYthrowing knife
dg on neck - 10

"yani" attack ines
throwing knife
knife in back - 6.5

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Last Edit: Dec 29, 2023 20:45:38 GMT -5 by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait

i always used to be into writing sort of modern abstract
lyricism stuff (that were like) slight vague indications of a feeling.

ines izar d11a 🖤 cait
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sunflowers don't bloom for sinners [ines hg sim] Jan 3, 2024 22:36:10 GMT -5

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Post by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait on Jan 3, 2024 22:36:10 GMT -5

The knife catches me between the shoulder blades as I attempt to tuck myself safely away. It feels like the least brave thing I can do, but then again, I hadn’t really been planning on having to stab Yani in her angelic little face.

Cowardice is something I’m familiar with, even if I don’t want to be. Nekane has drilled it into my head for five years that when the time came, I would need to step up and be brave. That Yani was the Messiah that needed to be protected, and I was the sacrificial lamb. There would be no question, no argument.

But it’s been years since she brought me home, with the conditions of my adoption, and I’m still just as terrified as I was then. Maybe even moreso now that I’m older, that I understand better. So yeah, sue me for wanting to run and hide – it’s not my fault that it’s just about the only thing I know how to do! If it worked for Wolf Turing, it’ll work for me, right?!

ines attack "yani"
Qw8PwcSXofthrowing knife
sc on neck - 4

"yani" attack ines
throwing knife
sc on thigh - 3.5

throwing knife·throwing knife

Last Edit: Jan 3, 2024 22:36:54 GMT -5 by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait

i always used to be into writing sort of modern abstract
lyricism stuff (that were like) slight vague indications of a feeling.

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sunflowers don't bloom for sinners [ines hg sim] Jan 5, 2024 10:07:40 GMT -5

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Post by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait on Jan 5, 2024 10:07:40 GMT -5

But Yani is eighteen next year, and I am seventeen. The end is in sight already. There’s the chance I get out of this one-sided deal unscathed. Maybe I get to live a life in a house of my own making, where the doors are always open and wild sunflowers grow freely.

So why am I even here right now, with the odds apparently in our favour for once? And realistically, is there any point in trying to pretend like I know how to fight? What chance did I ever have against any Career? The best hope I had was to continue my nightly prayers for protection. That’s where I should be right now. That’s where I belong.

ines attack "yani"
ELJJgK5FMvthrowing knife
sc on neck - 4

"yani" attack ines
throwing knife
miss - 0

throwing knife·throwing knife

Last Edit: Jan 5, 2024 10:10:01 GMT -5 by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait

i always used to be into writing sort of modern abstract
lyricism stuff (that were like) slight vague indications of a feeling.

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sunflowers don't bloom for sinners [ines hg sim] Jan 6, 2024 7:34:05 GMT -5

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Post by ines izar d11a 🖤 cait on Jan 6, 2024 7:34:05 GMT -5

There’s only so long you can hide before you have to face the world. And maybe it’s a little dramatic to be drawing parallels between home and a simulation, but the principles are still the same, aren’t they?

The holographic version of Yani throws knife after knife at me while I’m still fumbling to wrap my hands around each handle I pick up. The barricade is my saving grace, but again: hiding is not the answer, not really. It’s never going to be the answer for me. Not with my kind of name.

There’s not a bad bone in my body. I know this. Can feel the way my heart leaps into my throat when the blade leaves my hand and burrows its way into the not-there flesh of a not-real Yani. But this whole simulation? Was a mistake. And I needed to go.

There was only one way that was going to happen.

A deep breath to steady myself as I get to my feet; a reminder that none of this is real, I’ll be fine, I’ll be on a train home tonight, then there’s just one more year to freedom. The table falls away. The last knife flies.

ines attack "yani"
3rckayTLththrowing knife
sc on cheek - 3.5

"yani" attack ines
throwing knife
sc on calf - 3.5