In the gloom ||Rae||

I kept walking aimlessly down the street leading to the community home, but i wasnt planning on heading in right now, so i keep walking and as i pass it, i spot the strange girl i had met at blue's house, Shay... I keep walking until I realize we will cross paths, 'Com'on rae, put on a smile and dont be all weird.' i tell myself. I walk right past her and smile then she...

"Please, dont have any false hope for Blue, she knows how low her chances are so dont tell the kids anything about it," i tell her, grimacing as she mentions our death-awaiting friend... "Sorry, its just that i dont think you realize what you're saying.." I tell her, because if she dared mention anything about Blue's current situation in front of those kids, Ill be the one to take care of it... "Blue shouldnt be remembered as hopeless, alright!?" i tell her, venting, because i finally break down, in front of a stranger at that, my friend, gone for good, never to return to our humble district 12...

"Well from now on keep those thoughts to yourself, please." i tell her because I, myself, didnt want to keep pretending, because i know for damned sure that she isnt coming back, how could she. "Actually, you shouldnt even think that way, because it isnt healthy, and you know she isnt coming back!" i shout at her, the stranger, shay.

"I may have known her for only weeks, but i know that SHE knows there is no chance!" i yell, the tears drying up, for the next year or so. "Your just too weak to deal with it.." i tell her with confidence, this strange, peculiar girl is just that... Weak.

"then maybe you shuold be in her place!" i snap at her, not caring how hurtful my words must be, because im sick of her acting like everything is okay. I hate her, this, not her, but i hate this. UGH! im confusing myself...

"Well too bad for you, suppose Blue's living the dream, right?" I ask her calmly and cooly, not caring for her answer... "You know. I dont know if i like you or not, you talk too much, your too giddy and believe in false hopes that can end up hurting more than yourself, the kids shouldnt be around you," i tell her, if she is going to talk about blue as much as she is, they'll end up hoping for her to survive, its wrong.