Broken Bonds and Mended Trust {Raeoki}

"What are you thinking about?" The very question that led me into my deep girl thought. At least that's what my mom used to say. Whenever I questioned a seemingly wise thing, my mother always pounced on me. Oh Kenna! You make me seem so dumb, with you deep girl thought.

What was I thinking about? I mean, I guess I was thinking about my mother, but it felt more like my mother was thinking about me. After all, she was the one that entered my dreams. I never invited her over the threshold of the door. "Well, I guess you could say I'm thinking about a sweet nightmare, more or less."

Akward how words crossed eachother out sometimes, huh? How could a nightmare be sweet? Well you'd have to Kenna to know how that particular sensation felt. I plucked at the grass, twisting it around my fingers. Maybe, if I let go tonight, Raeoki wouldn't remember in the morning. That would be nice. To have a trusting person to spill your guts to and not be afraid of their reaction.

Raeoki and I had never really talked much. We weren't what you would call friends. More or less, we were strangers. But we did say hi and stuff, like you were obliged to. But that didn't matter right. You could sell your heart to a stranger, right? After all, it's the money your after.

"Raeoki, have your ever experienced something? Something that made you, erm, paranoid at times? Or filled with fury at times?" I wasn't sure what made me ask her. I guess my impulses just needed to. And I guess my heart needed to know that I wasn't the only one hurting.

I blinked. It was surprising her completly random mood change. In the begining I thought she was going to completly chew me out. Had she seen past the question and realised her hatred of the Capitol for ruining her life? Or did she know the traumatic events of her past life? Not a lot of people had been working in the fields that day. Especially children. It was at midnight she was sentenced.

I zoned out. I remember coming back from school that day. It had been tough, she had had three major tests in one day, had a fight with an older girl who had forgotten her lunch at home and stolen Kenna's, leaving her starving through a whole day of school. It had seemed so important back then. I remember wanting to run home and tell my parents all about the mean girl who made me sknnier than I already was.

It was in math. The principal herself had come to tell her. She had pulled me aside, my heart had been beating like a drum. Was she going to give me a detention for picking a fight with the older girl? It was so unfair. Her luch had gotten stolen, shouldn't the mean girl get punished? But apparently not. "Mckenna. Oh, my dear, your mother-

No. I could not think anymore. And just in time, too. "Why?" , Raeoki asked.

The tears rolled down my cheek before I could stop them. I didn't try to hide them. "A life of lies is but a life in hell, thou shalt not fall unto such greatness, yet such sorrowness." , I quoted. Straight out of my mother's mouth. Two more tears appeared down the side of my cheek.