* Do not write back *, letter for Flight [Chaos]

My dear Flight,
my love,
Flight,

I have no doubt that this letter comes as a surprise to you. It seems only yesterday that you asked me to marry you and now... well, I have to ask something of you. But first, I need to explain myself.
I had to leave, the illness was killing Trig, and in turn, it was killing me. I could not have lived with myself if I had just let him wither. He's just a child. We set out for the Capitol on foot. I had no time to think but I should have let you know. It's too late now anyway, and there's nothing I can do but hope that this letter reaches you.

They managed to cure him at the Capitol, which made me wonder why they could not just send the remedy to District Nine. I suppose that we're all just disposable. But this is not what my letter is about. I don't know how they found out, but the wedding band on my finger may have betrayed us. The Peacekeepers questioned me about your whereabouts. They know that I'm your wife. I did not tell them anything, I don't even know why they are so intent on finding you. Flight, they hurt me but never killed me.

I wondered why they would not kill me or Trig at the beginning, but then I realised that they want me to lead them to you. They followed us to District Nine. It's not safe for you or for me if we see each other. Trig and I must go into hiding. As much as it pains me, it is for the best and I have to do this to protect us. You must promise me - and I mean it, Flight - you must swear not to go looking for me. You must not write back. Do not seek to contact me. Do not reply to this letter.

Just know that I am still your wife and that I will be thinking of you always. Keep this letter and me in your heart and however much this seems like goodbye, know that it is not forever. I miss you and love you.

Be safe.

Kaya.

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Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe