the heart of life { Axel

Riley Everfield
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Normally fear had been an agent that left me frozen, petrified, unable to move or talk, this time it was a motivator. Ever since Cade and I had left on the beach that day I had been living with a mixture of excitement and fear within my heart. I had never gone against the rules, I had never strayed from the normal routine of how things work. If either of us were caught, even on suspicion, the entire plan would fall through, Cade and I would never be able to run away, we would never get a chance to see what life would be like were we given choices. I was never good at keeping secrets though, and I felt sure my parents could see a level of excitement building within my heart. If they so much as saw me smiling they knew something was wrong, they always wanted to make my life miserable.

I didn't want to think about the consequences of what we were doing though, I couldn't bear to think of Cade in any form of pain. Some pains I could deal with, I could deal with the pain of my own body, I could deal with physical pain. If Cade were hurt though, if he were suffering, that would be a pain of the heart, a pain that would cut deeper and be more painful than any beating I could recieve. At times worrying about what might happen to him made me second guess everything, made me wonder if what we were doing was worth it. But I would see Cade's face, his easy smile, and his eyes full of determination, it was a reminder that we could do it, that he knew the consequences but he was willing to take the risk. It gave me the strength to know that I should be willing to take the risk, that he was worth the risk.

Morning was coming quickly, the morning of our departure, the morning of a new life, a chance for Cade and I to do everything we had talked about for so long. It was easy to slip out of the house as early as it was, my parents slept late, a long night of drinking or planning my life for me took a lot out of them. I threw everything I wanted to bring with me into one of the luggage bags that were for "vacationing" to other parts of District 4. Spare clothes, a small comb with a rose on it, and any other of my few small belongings made their way into the luggage. Slipping quietly out of my room I dragged my luggage across the floor and, with as much stealth as possible, unlatched the door and made my way into the front yard. I did not look back, there were no found memories with my family, I had to look forward towards a bright new future, a future with Cade.

I walked to the one place that I knew he would be waiting for me, our place, our secret place that had been were everything started for us. It seemed fitting that it would be from there that we set out to begin our lives anew, and start fresh. I walked slowly but with enough authority that should anyone cast a curious glance out their windows I would not seem suspicious. Even though my heart fluttered in my chest, willing me to run faster, to run into Cade's arms, I forced myself to remain calm and careful. As our spot began to come into view though I felt all my caution evaporate from my body, and suddenly my feet were pounding along the pavement, the soft click of the wheels on my luggage creating music with the pounding of my feet. I ran until I could see Cade's shape looming up before me, and my hand let go of the luggage as I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him right there.

I broke away from him and looked up into his face, running my hand gently along his jaw, and whispered faintly to him. "I came Cade, I came, I'm ready for us to start a new life, I'm ready...I'm ready to be happy. I want to be with you, I want to have the life that we talked about for all those years when we were little, all those promises that we made when we first me...we can do them now, we can start over." Resting my head on his chest I closed my eyes, letting the warmth of his arms wrapped around me spread through my body. He had always had that affect on me, he had always been a comforter to me, someone who could make my rapidly fluttering heart slow down, someone who could make me feel safe.

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Riley Everfield
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As soon as I was in his arms I felt safe, I felt like the world could no longer hurt me as long as he was here. That's how it had been when I first met him, that's how I had known he was the one. The first day I had met him, or rather an evening when we had properly met, I had known he was special. It was made all the more daring because our meeting was a secret, a midnight rendezvous. It had started out as nothing more than idle curiosity on both our parts, we had firmly believed we would amount to nothing more than just friends. Of course that changed very quickly, the more time we spent with each other the more sure we were that there was something between us. It started out slow, but that spark grew into a burning fire as we continued to spend more time with each other. Now we were reaching the culmination of that little spark, we were going to run away with each other.

As his hand ran easily through my hair I felt as if I could just melt into him, that we could stand here forever. His gentle voice in my ear telling me that this will all be worth it, we would be happy together...he promised...he promised we would. The longer we waited here though the greater the risk of our being found, of being forced never to see each other again. I pulled away from him briefly to fit my back against his chest and move his arms to wrap around me. "I know you'll keep your promise Cade, I know you will, just like I kept my promise to come here today. When I saw you yesterday I felt like it would be nothing more then a tease, that I would never be able to see you again after we left each other. I firmly believed that any true shot at happiness was lost after my parents arranged a marriage to a man I could never love...you are the only one I've ever loved.

How many times have those words been said, how many times has a young couple professed such feelings to each other. The words at times can seem so shallow and weak, but there is a feeling deep within my heart, a feeling that courses through me, a feeling from deep within my heart. I firmly believe that truer words were never said to me, when you say you love me I know it's true, and I know that when I say I love you the words are from deep within my heart. We'll never be able to be with each other if we wait here any longer, if we sit here waiting for the morning light to reveal where we are." I small chill of nervousness ran up my spine, and I drew Cade's arms tighter around me, hoping they will protect me and keep me safe from all my fears. My words were true though, if we were going to be together we needed to run now, we needed to escape before anyone could figure out we were gone.

It occurred to me that I had no idea where we were going though, that part, to this point, had been a secret to me. Were we leaving the district entirely or just retreating into some secret home that Cade knew about? I gazed out across the water wondering if this would be the last view of this particular scene I would be able to see, only Cade knew where we were going, and it was probably better that way, the less people that knew where we were headed the better. I tipped my head back and gave him a quick kiss on the bottom of his jaw, and let out a small giggle as I pulled away from him and slipped my hand into his. "We need to go Cade, we can't stay here, otherwise we'll never be together." Without waiting for a reply I pulled him away from the beach and into one of the dark streets. Traveling through the center of the district would be suicide for our plan, and I wanted to take the cover of the forest. No matter where we were headed I felt sure that the cover of the woods around the district would be better than the open streets.

We wound our way through the streets, the twisting path that I took confusing to anyone who may try and follow us. It was a route I had traveled many times myself, a route that would be able to hide me when I needed to be alone. Before now I had never believed it would be of any help to me aside from being known as my "panic" route. Now though it was serving as an escape route, or rather a route to freedom, it was like following the "yellowbrick road" in that old fairy tale. If we followed this path we would obtain our freedom and happiness, and our wishes would be granted...our wish to be together. I sped through the streets pulling Cade behind me until the line of trees that marked the beginning of the thin woods loomed before us. "There it is Cade, there's our shot at freedom, if we can reach the trees we'll be free, they'll never find us. We can be together forever, we can be together...we can...we can start a family of our own." The end of my statement had been no more than a whisper, even I couldn't be sure that I had said it, never the less a blush crept onto my face and lingered as I continued to this about a family with Cade.

Wasn't that why I was doing this in the first place...didn't I want to have a baby...didn't I want Cade to be the father of the baby?

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