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Sage
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"I swear to god you give me the sex talk, I'll kill you"

tearful appologies [Rave] Oct 30, 2013 22:58:43 GMT -5

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Post by Sage on Oct 30, 2013 22:58:43 GMT -5

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Home, I was home. How the hell was I at home? The house seems muted, like there's something covering my ears and as I reach for the earrings I wear in my ears from Siber, I feel the barrier between the worlds lift and suddenly, my solid form dissolves and is replaced by a transparent version of myself. I hate this version of myself, I like being actually solid, not this damn ghost version of myself. I silently float through the house, entering rooms where I grew up and feeling tears prick my eyes. All the memories of my childhood, as short as it was, lie in these walls and I wish I could run my hand over the wall. Down the hall comes my youngest brother Siber and I open my arms, wanting to give him a hug but he passes right through me. It's the weirdest sensation as he goes through me, as if I'm not even there. "Siber" I call but he can't hear me. I turn away from him, one creature will be able to see me; Delany.

As I float down the hallway, i enter my old room before remembering that Delany now sleeps in Abyss' room. His room is a few more rooms down. I float through the walls into his room and see Delany settled on Abyss' bed asleep, as soon as I enter the room though, her ears perk up and she opens her eyes, staring straight at me. "Delany" I say softly. She stares at me with her intelligent blue eyes and stands up, stretching. She pads over to me and meows at me. It's as if she's saying welcome back, i missed you. I smile before I hear the door open and I turn to see Abyss. I want to see him I want him to see me. I concentrate as much as I can and feel myself materialize. "Abyss, I-I'm So S-s-sorry" I say, feeling my knee's go weak. I failed him, I didn't even make it past day one and I brought dishonour to our family. I wasn't even worthy of being a Felies. "I failed you and I brought dishonour to our family, please, forgive me" I say, my voice quivering.

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Elegant: oh darling do you really think I was 'gone' gone?

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tearful appologies [Rave] Nov 10, 2013 1:36:46 GMT -5

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Post by Deleted on Nov 10, 2013 1:36:46 GMT -5

Abyss Felies

We live in cities you'll never see on screen
Not very pretty, but we sure know how to run free
Living in ruins of the palace within my dreams
And you know, we're on each other's team

Failure. The word flowed through his brain like it had often. Not because he saw himself that way, no he had just lost focus on the way quadratic formulas scattered against his desk, and how messanger RNA carried genetic information during reproduction, and how he would never need any of these in order to actually survive. But surviving was only half of the goal wasn't it? Where did Abyssial even see himself going in life, it wasn't like he had placed much thought on it before hand, the thought of not being able to do your younger siblings homework forced you to think about these things. Everybody else saw him as perfect because that's what they saw.

Royalty falls too though. He found that out that hard way too, royalty didn't last forever it was obvious of that. Kingdoms fall in childhood stories and the red queens didn't last long once some pseudo-elegant fall into her lands. He learned something about that too. Not in the way he entirely wanted to, but marked the rule down anyways, right under the work for figuring out the factors for x² + 12x + 20. The pencil he was twirling around on the fore-of-his-thumb fell to his desk in a clatter, interrupting the tiniest sense of concentration he held closest to him.

It was hard to concentrate lately, mind fogging each time he even attempted. Sometimes he didn't even try, breaking his genetics in the process. Sometimes he laid down in bed from the minute he woke up until when Sokoke tried to force him to be active around the household. Words didn't leave from his mouth at all, no real difference from the norm really, but he didn't attempt to mutter commands under his breath.

But he knew why too. His kingdom was falling apart at the seams. The tiny empire held under his wing was under attack, but they already lost, didn't they. Siana promised to him, that she would return, that everything would be fine, that Delaney would only be resting in his room for a couple of days at most. But she didn't reach those promises, did she? She promised to venture and come back victorious, but she only scraped the battlefield now, didn't she.

The eyes that fixed themselves onto the walls surrounding him were wiped clean with his bawled fists, while he wiped away the mist forming in them. Taking a quick one-two over to Delaney to make sure she was ok, he realized that she knew something he didn't. Like she was told by the wind a rumour about him, and she didn't feel like sharing. Her paws scraping against the air while she rested on the bed behind him and his desk, like something was there.

I'm kind of over getting told to throw my hands up in the air, so there
So all the cups got broke shards beneath our feet but it wasnï¿½t my fault
And everyoneï¿½s competing for a love they won't receive
'Cause what this palace wants is release

Last Edit: Nov 10, 2013 1:41:50 GMT -5 by Deleted

Sage
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"I swear to god you give me the sex talk, I'll kill you"

tearful appologies [Rave] Dec 23, 2013 20:55:48 GMT -5

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Post by Sage on Dec 23, 2013 20:55:48 GMT -5

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Siana Felies

Thinks

"Says"
Does

I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown
And I'm not sleeping now, the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me

The pain that rests inside my heart when I see my oldest brother makes me want to cringe. He'd expected so much from me, I'd promised to return to him as a queen of my kingdom but the queen has been overthrown, just like they always seem to be in history. I stare at him as the truth sets in; he can't see me. He can't see or hear me standing here in front of him trying to apologize for failing him. The tears that form in my eyes dry up. I'm wasting my breath. Why am I standing here in the first place if he can't even hear me. Hurt stabs my heart and I wince, of all the people, I thought Abyss would understand and I thought he'd be able to see me. I look down at Delany for a moment before taking a seat on Abyss' bed, trying to run my fingers through her fur but I can't feel her, I only know she can feel me because she starts to purr softly.

I sit silently for a few moments, simply watching my brother work before I can't stand it anymore. I'd only done it once and that was when I'd appeared in my room. I think Azea saw me just as she was entering the room and probably swore she was seeing things but I focus my concentration, trying to get back into that zone I'd been in when I'd appeared before. Delany jumps when I materialize and I reach out to touch her tentatively. Her soft fur greets my fingers and I smile, a single tear forming in my eyes. I look up, trying to see if Abyss can see me. "Please, see me Abyss, I need you to see me. Please." I pray, hoping that I can will him to see me. Delany begins to purr and I look down, seeing that my legs have not appeared. I'm probably scaring him, just a floating torso and head, creepy.

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone

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Ani's Performers
Elegant: oh darling do you really think I was 'gone' gone?