Alone for the Weekend [Axel]

How long had it been since Fenna and I were together, some time in the winter, a cold, cold day, that could leave you feeling like the cold was clutching at your heart. I was no more than a streetrat when I had met her, an irritable streetrat at that, I had treated her in a manner that to look back on was most reprehensible. Complaint after complaint about my life within District 5, a life of hatred and anger, all directed towards the Capitol. They had taken everything from me, my family, my happiness, I had been so sure that I would never find happiness again. Never the less I had followed her home, to this day I wasn't sure what had come over me, unsure what feeling had possessed me and made me follow her. I had though, I had followed her home, and found a home of my own as a result. A family so to speak, people who cared about me, and all because of my feelings for their daughter.

For so long we had been waiting for a time when we could be alone, just the two of us. We were allowed very few moments alone, and even fewer when we could properly express our feelings to each other. Her parents were strict, making sure that we followed all the rules they put down, her father making it very clear that should he find his daughter pregnant that he would kick me out of the house. Kissing wasn't wrong, but it had to be kept to a minimum, and while my arm could be around her it was never to sink to the small of her back, up near her shoulders was as good as it got. The closest we had ever come to anything was when I had slept on top of the covers of her bed with her for a few hours, before her brother had come along and interrupted it. Since than it had been the bear minimum for any public displays of affection for the girl I loved, the girl who had given me a reason to live, a reason to breathe.

Her parents were leaving though, leaving the house all to Fenna and I, and even her brother wouldn't be here to ruin the moment. This house would be all ours, we could do anything we wanted, everything our hearts had longed to do while her parents were around. That's why I was putting an effort into looking my best for her right now, fresh clothes, clean shaven or as close as I could get, I just wanted to look good for her. She always looked so amazing, it would be nice if I made an effort to look nice for her, I owed that much to her at least. Which is why I slid into a green shirt that fit perfectly around my body, and a pair of jeans that hugged just below my waist. This would work for now, a quick glance in a mirror made me feel satisfied enough with my appearance to go down stairs to greet her on this, the morning that marked the start of our time alone.

Running down the stairs, I had barely enough time to look around before Fenna threw herself into my arms, telling me the news that I had already known, that the house was ours now. It sounded so much nicer coming from her lips though, the beautiful sound of her voice making it all that more real. Wrapping my arms around her I kissed along her jawline before giving her a quick kiss on the lips. "Yes, this is it Fenna, we finally have this home to ourselves, we finally don't have to worry about your parents or your brother cutting in on us. This will be like our home now, until your parents come home this is our home, and we can do whatever we want now."

When Fenna's arms wrapped around my neck I instantly felt more secure, I felt stronger and more sure of myself. It was a relief to me that neither of us had been reaped, another year that we could spend together without worrying about what was to come, in a way you could call this a celebration of another year together. Then her lips brushed lightly against mine, and a fire lit up within my heart, a fire that only she could light within me, a fire that warmed me to my very core. Of course the kiss didn't last long before Fenna seemed to realize that we were kissing in a...well...it would be entirely possible for us to fall down the steps. Her arms left my neck, but one of her hands remained in mine as she led me up the stairs, and then into her room. I had only been in her room a few times, and each time had resulted in a pang of fear and apprehension build within me.

This time was no different, anxiety built within me, and my heart instantly sped up. The words of Fenna's father rang in my ears, warning me that if I did anything that I would be cast out of the house. Not to mention what would happen to Fenna if anything happened...but he wasn't here anymore...we were alone...it was just Fenna and I, we had the house to ourselves. Her voice broke through my thoughts, and the next thing I knew was her hand against my skin and her lips against mine again. I pressed into the kiss and brushed her hair off the back of her neck to rest my hand against her skin and pull her into the kiss. My other hand ran through her hair and down her back, resting on the small of her back and gently pressing her body against mine. Once her body was pressed against mine I wrapped my arm around her and lifted her up, carrying her over to the bed.

I dropped down onto it, pulling her down with me, and broke away from the kiss to look up into her face, one of my hands running gently over her cheek. "I want to do anything and everything with you now that we're alone Fenna, I want to do everything we had wanted to do before, everything we couldn't do while your parents were here. They aren't...or weren't...the only thing holding me back, my own fear has held me back, my respect for you has held me back. I don't want to ever do anything that you wouldn't approve of, I don't want to make the mistake of rushing into things that neither of us are ready for." My thumb brushed against the skin of her cheek and I leaned forward to press my lips into hers again for a quick kiss. My head dropped back down and I smiled brightly at her, as my arms wrapped around her, holding her close to me, her warmth spreading throughout my body. "I love you Fenna, I always have and always will."

Her words in response to mine warmed my heart and I couldn't stop myself from smiling down at her lovingly. That was short lived though, we quickly were wrapped up in each other's arms, kissing without a care in the world. It wasn't far off from the truth either, we were alone here in the house together and we didn't have anything to worry about. No authority figure to interrupt us, her parents were gone, her brother was gone, and the Capitol had no reason to try come in and ruin anything. We had a world of possibilities layed out before us, we could do anything now, all of the rules that were originally set down left with her parenst. Not it was all a question of exactly how far Fenna wanted to take things. After all I was still a gentleman, it was all up to her where this went.

Right now it wasn't destined to go anywhere though, aside from kissing her, albeit very passionately, we didn't get further then that. I wasn't about to complain though, we had been restricted even in our kissing by her parents. It felt nice to just pour out all of our feelings and love for each other in a kiss like that, a kiss that conveyed just how much we meant to each other. The culprit responsible for the interruption was none other then Fenna herself, a rumbling stomach, a signal that she was hungry. Of course she confirmed it by saying she wanted to get something to eat before we did anything, and despite myself I felt a faint blush rise to my cheeks when she said it. I really needed to keep my mind off of her that way, it was just so hard though. Only once before this had we ever gone beyond the rules set down by her father, and that was when we had slept with each other after a long day together.

Her sweet little giggle was like music to my ears as she looked down at me, and I leaned up and gave her a quick kiss before sitting up. Pulling her onto my lap I stood up, cradling her in my arms as I carried her out of the room and down the stairs. "Well, no sense in letting my girl starve to death, what does my queen want for her snack? We have no restrictions, you can eat like royalty right now, this whole house is our for the taking" I smiled at her and kissed her forehead just as I entered the kitchen. Looking around I found the perfect seat for her, right across from the window over the sink, the sunlight was shining on it and call me foolish but I felt sure she would look angelic in that light. Setting her into the seat I stepped back to admire the picture and wasn't disappointed by what I saw.

The light hit her already radiant face making her appear just as angelic as I thought she would. Her eyes had a playful sparkle to him, and her lips, her beautiful lips were turned up in a smile that put to shame every other girls in all of Panem. "How is it that I of all people should be so lucky as to have Panem's angel as my girlfriend? How truly lucky I am, luckier than any other person in the world, to have you and hold you and love you. Don't move an inch, just tell me what you want and I'll get it, just give me more time to soak in your beauty." It was all a bit cliche and everything I said had probably already been said before but it was true, and I wanted her to know it. I wanted her to know just how much I loved her, just how beautiful I thought she was.

It was a simple enough request, all she wanted was bagels, and while they may not be the most hearty of things for a meal...well she wanted them and so she would have them. I walked to one of the cabinets and took out the small roll of parchment, withdrawing from it a few bagels that I set on a plate for her. I turned around, pausing for a moment to take in her beauty once more, before I set the plate down infront of her. Before walking to my seat I brushed my lips lightly against hers and smiled, how far we had come since that first day. An angry boy wandering the streets and a girl sitting in the snow, who would have believed that the two of us possibly would end up together.

I couldn't help but feel a little restless though, sitting here, almost like I was wasting time. We had this whole house to ourselves but here we were sitting in the kitchen. Of course she couldn't really help that she was hungry, but for some reason I felt agitated, I felt ready to continue where we left off. I swallowed my eagerness and waited for her to finish eating though, which was as good as torture. She was worth it though, she was worth everything, and when she was finally done eating she asked if I had any preferences for what we did today. To be honest I really had no preference at all, I just wanted to spend time with her and be with her.

"Oh no, Fenna, today is all about you, anything you want to do today and it's yours. I'm just here to help your dreams come true along the way, because knowing you're happy makes me happy. Anything you want and it's yours, I will do my best to get it for you" I leaned into her and brushed my lips against hers again teasingly before I got up and walked to the counter, jumping up to sit on it. "I'm sure you've got some idea of things you'd like to do Fenna, and I'm at your disposal. We are alone today, so I'm sure you must have a few things you'd have liked to do when your parents were around. Guess what...we can do them now."