I'm sorry [Sia's DP rewritten for feels]

No one expects to die, yes humans are born knowing they're going to die but you never expect it to come so soon. You never expect to be thrown in into an arena and made to fight other people to the death. It's not natural and it's not how I was supposed to die. I was supposed to go home with the golden victors crown on my head and be royalty. Mommy, I'm scared I don't know if it's just me or if something is happening to me as I stumble along almost blindly through the hedge maze, my jaw aching and my body battered. I am noknt the little girl my parents know, I am a murderer. I helped kill my own district partner. What kind of person does that. it was him or you I try to tell myself but I know that that is complete bull shit, it didn't have to be him or me, it could have just been him amd I could have left him alone. Why, then, had I raised the battleaxe clutched in my hands against him?

My hands tremble as I look at the weapon, covered in drying blood and I wipe it off. I can't live with that reminder of Vepspasian, my fucking district partner, the only one in this hell hole from home and I helped kill him. I feel tears in the corners of my eyes and furiously wipe them away. I can't cry now, I have to be strong. The hedge maze stretches above my head, at least 10 feet tall and unclimbable. I sigh, my jaw throbbing like my heartbeat that is pounding in my chest. Where are my allies? I havent seen them since Mantel booked it, using first aid on me to heal me a bit before he disappeared into the hedge maze. I'd followed him shortly thereafter but I couldn't find him, all that I could see were endless stretches of hedges and green grassunder my feet. I just need to rest for a moment. I sit on t he grass, trying to staunch the blood seeping from my various injuries. It is a miracle I survived that chaos.

Footsteps approaching quickly force me to look away from my wounds and peer around. Suddenly, a blur races up to me and I feel a sharp sting. It is the boy from nineStorm. I thought he was my friend. Obviously not. I don't even have a chance to react before the boy from three, Jim, attacks me and I cry out as blood spatters the ground. My blood. I know I am going to die. How can I survive these injuries? I wince and shrink away from them. That's when the killing low comes but but not from them, it comes from a third person, Beatrice Birch, district two. I scream as her knife embeds itself into my stomach and I can taste blood in my mouth. I don't wanna die the thought fills my mind with a burning hatred. I hate these people who have ended my life and prevented me from going home. I hate them, I hate them I hate them. I look at Beatrice, my blue eyes full of as much hate as I can muster before my vision begins to go blurry. I slump down in the grass, my blood in a pool around me and I feel tears in my eyes. "I'm sorry Mantel, I'm sorry Linus, I'm sorry Abyss, I'm sorry everyone" I whimper before the cold grip of death washes over me and my spirir finally lets go of its struggle to liveGood bye everyone, I love yoi and I am so sorry