{Hope} With Me (Royal)(blitz)

[attr="class","text"]I feel like crying. This older boy from district seven was screaming at me for no reason. I had made a joke because he acted like he wanted me to kill him, but I don't want to kill anyone at all! I knew I was going to die the moment I had my hand shoot up to the sky and my mouth say that I volunteer. I came into these games knowing I will die to save another. I am fine with that. What I'm not fine with is the fact that someone is asking me to kill them. I am not Iago from the 65th games, killing someone who trusted and loved him even though she had asked. I wouldn't be like him or anyone else who wants to kill or does kill.

At first I thought this guy might be nice on the slight chance. When I saw him at the reaping and around here I always saw him with a look of jovial excitement. Now, though, he was staring at me with such anger I wanted to melt into the floor into a puddle. I hold back tears and sniff a small bit. No one had ever shouted at me like this before in district eight except for the rude factory bosses and my brother and sister trying to stop me from watching the games.

"Please just leave me alone." I say quietly in my small voice. I just want to shrink to a mouse and run away. Run away from this boy. From the big bad wolf with the eye patch. Away from dummies that spurt out fake blood when I hit them with a knife, away from people who will gush real blood when I need to kill them. I wish I could just leave this all behind, wind back the clock and let someone else volunteer for Samael. Go back to a normal life of being grounded and blocked out of the tv room by Preston and Eva. I think about my wonderful siblings, and again I hold back tears.

"I don't want to hurt anyone."