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are you my forever? {arrows} Aug 4, 2015 15:27:31 GMT -5

Post by knuckles on Aug 4, 2015 15:27:31 GMT -5

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It is impossible to count the years I've spent with June. Getting to know her, and loving her has become the most important aspect of my life. When she was gone, I spent each day trying to hold onto a piece of hope that she was still alive. Many times I almost failed because living without her became impossible. Each passing second away from her was unbearable. June is the only person who accepts me for who I am. It's hard to describe the feeling I get when I'm around her. A large smile always spreads from ear to ear. Butterflies dance around in my stomach. I feel all giddy. All the worries in the world fly away when I'm around her. Even the fear of the games.

My foot taps gently against the ground in a simple rhythm matching the beats of my heart. Clouds stain the sky blocking out the sunlight for the day. Every now and then a ray will poke through the clouds leaving a stairway to the sky. I hum silently to myself as my fingers twirl yarn around braiding it into such a small contraption. Every string is important because this has to last forever. Each strand must become strong enough to withstand years of wear and tear. Mom would be upset if she knew I took her yarn despite the fact that I'm not using much. It's hard for us to afford anything, but what I have I give my all. I would travel to the ends of the world and back for June. I'll never forget the first time I talked to her face to face. It was that moment the realization set in. At the time I didn't know I was staring the light of my world in the face.

A large grin presses firmly against my lips as I remove a small button from the chair arm winding the braided yarn through it making a makeshift ring. It's definitely not the prettiest thing in the entire world, but it's enough to keep me going. After tying the ends together, I pocket the ring before heading inside. Humming happily to myself, I walk past the kitchen praying mom doesn't see me as I put all of her supplies back in place. The amount of yarn I used is marginale compared to what's left. She probably won't even know. For a moment I fear she's spotted me. Thankfully she didn't. Mom didn't even know I was in the kitchen. I would've lied to her. I would've told her that I was looking for something to eat, but I hate having to lie. I wish mom understood me better. I wish she'd take away the chain she has around me.

Once I make it to my room, I search through my closet looking for my best outfit. The best I have is my reaping outfit, but I choose something different. It doesn't feel like wearing my reaping clothes anywhere else. Sighing to myself, I find another button up shirt, and pair of jeans that has holes in the knees. It's horrible not having enough money to buy anything. I guess it's just the way of life. Shaking my head, I remove the outfit from the hangers and quicky change into them as I place the makeshift ring into my jeans. I run down the hall as fast as I can dragging my dead foot behind me. I burst through the door and head out of the house before mom has a chance to stop me.

The walk to her house doesn't take long. My heart leaps inside my chest as butterflies dance through my stomach twisting my insides together. A large grin plasters against my face as I move across the sidewalk towards her house. Each step growing larger and larger while my pace quickens. I stop once I reach her door. My hands shake at my side as my fist gently connects with the door.

And then I stand and wait praying she's inside because this is one moment I don't want to lose.

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are you my forever? {arrows} Aug 4, 2015 20:46:10 GMT -5

Post by Arrows on Aug 4, 2015 20:46:10 GMT -5

The weak beams of morning slowly began to seep through the wooden window sills as a bird sang its song softly outside. June let out a soft moan as she stretched her body and rose from the snow white sheets of her bed. A tinge of sadness lingered in June's heart from the emptiness that surrounded her. Ever since her return to District Nine she had no luck in locating April. Everyone she asked said one day she was here and the next she was gone. In fact many people believed they had both vanished without a trace never to return. Yet here she sat alone in a room that use to give her so much joy and happiness. Just the thought of having a house with her sisters again after being separated elated her. Now she had no adoptive family and the baby of the family was all that was left. The girl who had panic attacks and was a weak fool. None of it made sense, but then again her life was never allowed to have happiness in it.

As June walked clumsily over to her closet she thought of the only person left who held a candle up into her dark life. Sammy. He had been there from the time she was just a lonely panic riddled little school girl all the way to now when she lived alone working immeasurable amounts of hours in the factories and a beaten criminal. Why he stayed around June only knew after she had returned from her stay at the Capitol Detention Center. All these years he had stayed with her because he loved her and she loved him, and sadly that was what scared her most.

Even as June changed into a nice long lavender dress that stopped at her ankles she worried he would not be waiting for her at the door like he always did. A part of her always knew that she would never cease to worry about things due to her past. Yet another part of her believed she would grow numb to it eventually in the distant future. Ripred June hoped she would for the future had to look brighter than her past. June was tired of the blood and the sadness, all she longed for was happiness and love. Was that too much for a girl to ask for?

June let out a long breath to calm her shaking limbs as she brushed her long blonde locks and looked deeply into her bathroom mirror. Every time she looked there now she couldn't help but yelp at how similar she looked to April. June wanted to be happy and proud of the fact she did but all she could see was April and not herself. All she saw in her own vision was a reminder of all the things she had lost. June was a miserable child and now all she craved was a brighter tomorrow.

Just as June slid on a nice pair of sandals she heard a knock at the door and the normal waves of relief spread through her body. It would seem that for another day she could be happy and in love without any fear. So with a nod she put on the best smile she could and walked over to the door. Yet she paused as her hand touched the knob. For some reason she could feel a strange feeling deep in her bones yet she couldn't figure out what it was. Still she didn't wait long to walk outside and wrap her arms around Sammy before planting a soft kiss on his lips.

"Morning my sweet Sammy." She said playfully as she wrapped her hand in his and they began to walk towards the nearby park. June always loved her day off for the week since it allowed her to get away and be with Sammy for more than just minutes at a time. In all truth when she was with him she actually felt like time itself finally stopped and she could spend every moment frozen with him happily.

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are you my forever? {arrows} Aug 6, 2015 10:24:48 GMT -5

Post by knuckles on Aug 6, 2015 10:24:48 GMT -5

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Living without her was impossible. I held onto the hope that she was still alive. I'll never forget the sight of her laying broken on the ground after the train dropped her off. I'll never forget the feeling that crept through me. I was the happiest man on the face of the earth because my lovely June had returned. Mom didn't understand why I was filled with intense sadness when she left. It was the worse days of my entire life.

For a moment, it felt like my entire life was on track. It didn't matter that I was trapped in a world where nobody cared because June cared. She cares for me, and I care for her. She was gone for so long, and it felt horrible knowing she wasn't here. That I couldn't wake up and see her smiling face. But now she's back. Beaten and broken, but the woman I love more than anything in the entire world has returned.

My lips twist into a large smile when the door opens, and she ran through the door wrapping her arms around me before kissing me. The butterflies in my stomach are moving in full force twisting my insides around one another leaving my stomach in a huge knot. She's so beautiful.

I can't take my eyes off her long blonde hair, or the beautiful dress she's wearing.

Her hand wraps around mine, and we start walking away.

"Morning my beautiful June." I take a deep breath as I look around. My foot drags behind me with each step, but it doesn't take away my future like I once thought it would. June hasn't laughed at me over it. She accepted me from the beginning. "I love your dress."

It was spur of the moment. A chance to bring up a conversation so we wouldn't walk in silence. This is her day off work. A day she can spend with me. A day that I can prepare for the future. Hopefully it'll be our future. I honestly can't imagine my life without her because for the time she was gone, my life was a living hell. It was spent trying to make mom happy. Trying to please her when all I wanted was to lock myself away in a dark room and cry for hours upon hours.

I lost her once, and I'm not about to lose her again.

As we near the destination, I can't help but hope we can make our future together. I want her to be apart of mine, and I want to be apart of her's. It seems Panem is all about sweeping the happiness away from everyone, but I have learned even in the darkest hours, happiness can be found. I had to learn it otherwise I would've killed myself after she was taken away by the peacekeepers. I broke a promise I made to May all those years ago, and I'm not about to do it again.

"I love you June Rhodes."

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are you my forever? {arrows} Oct 4, 2015 11:18:28 GMT -5

Post by Arrows on Oct 4, 2015 11:18:28 GMT -5

With just the feeble touch of a single entity's love someone's soul could be sent through never ending eternities of happiness and utter satisfaction. With the uncrushable golden gates of this love no harm or devastation could send that person's soul into the wavering darkness of depression. No amounts of pain or suffering could ever overcome the embodiment of true heart to heart connections that formed between the two trapped lovers. Like two doves flying across as swift chilling breeze in a sky of clear blue the love of these two souls could travel on forever with no intentions of stopping. As long as their was love, even just the slightest pinch, within a single soul's life then they will never truly feel alone. For June, this lesson was the entire complete edition of her broken life.

Battered and torn to smithereens was anything that supplied her with the warmth of love. Everyone who ever gave their love to her found themselves beneath a surface of chilling death sealed for all of eternity. Then as they all departed from the world of the living they left behind her broken life to see just how much the severed connections could destroy her. Ripred never did look down upon the Rhodes family with compassion, all he ever sent was the sheer force of sorrow. Then now for some reason only he could answer June remained the only Rhodes still standing with a beating heart. Part of her wanted to believe she was chosen as the best of her family to carry on but she knew that would never be true. June was a coward who had been tortured and beaten on numerous occasions. Why she was the only one left could only mean one thing to her. Her time just simply hadn't arrived yet.

However, even with death's hand resting on her shuddering shoulder June had one sole purpose of carrying on to see the shimmering rays of another morning. Even through the six days of full hours working, through paying her own rent, through having to teach herself since she couldn't attend school due to work, through every single aspect of hell that life had thrown at her. Even through all of it she was determined to have life continue in her hollowed chest. It was all due to the love of one single person who had been there for her during the fall of her family. With the tender care of one man's heart to shield her from her troubles she found hope and even excitement in waking up another day. It was all thanks to the one she had become to know as her soul mate, it was all because no one other than Sammy Gustav.

Leaves of all kinds of hues dance and swim in the brisk Autumn breeze as June and Sammy continue down the uneven path. With their hands firmly locked together June could never feel more safe. As long as she had his determination and his strength by her side she could feel no suffering or hear no whispers of her disjointed and shattered past. When she was with him all she could remember was laughter and long nights spent pressed up against one another as a weak fire sent shadows dancing across the room. All she could remember was all the times she had spent with him, all the times she had spent loving him. Deep down in June's heart she knew she was his and that he was her's. June was so en-wrapped in his eyes that she didn't even realize as they were strolling that she had laid her head softly on his shoulder.

Gentle gusts of cool air streamed through the blonde maze of June's hair sending it twirling through the air. Off in the sheltered red and orange leaves of a nearby oak tree an owl sent out a lonely hoot through the area. Leaves cracked and broke with every step June took yet it all just seemed to add up to the symphony of her happiness. Never in June's life did she imagine she would be in the location she was now. Love had always seemed to be a thing that avoided her at all costs, and in truth she avoided it as well. However slowly over time Sammy had heaved her out of the trenches of her misery and back into the light of joy. If June had known this was where he path would lead her she wouldn't have changed a thing. For once it finally seemed like death had created something good for June.

Still though worry still picked away at June's thoughts even now as they walked so closely together. Even in the warmth of her touch she felt doubts creeping up from her spine. June was so afraid of loving Sammy for one plain reason she couldn't help but hate. She was scared of loving him since she feared he would be ripped away to the lands of the dead just as everyone else was. All throughout June's life she lost those most dear to her. First her mother, then he father, then her second oldest sister, and then he eldest sister. Each of these people had been torn away from her by the blood lust of death and now she couldn't help but flinch at the thought of Sammy's lifeless eyes gazing back at her. However, she felt determination lighting from within her core as well. June didn't want to have to be afraid to love the boy of her dreams, so instead she would protect him at all costs. If death wanted to steal him it would have to dive through her first. At all costs she would preserve this love she felt towards him.

Color flushed across June's cheek as Sammy once again professed his love for her. Every time those words slipped out of his mouth she felt angels singing hymns in her heart. It was in those very words she found her greatest comfort and safety. Finally June had found a man who was so much more than just a man. He was a man with a heart that cared unlike that of her Father's. Sammy was the man June wanted to spend every waking day next to, and in a way she felt like she was going to. No amount of time would rot away the feelings that she had for him as she hoped the same went for him, now she just had to let him know that. So softly she returned his phrase of affection with her own. "And I love you Sammy Gustav."

Slowly June's feet came to a stop as they now stood beneath the very same grove of trees they had met in four long years ago. The very bench they had both first sat in together still stood proudly beneath the wilting leaves of the grove. It was in this very location that everything had sprung forth and set everything else into motion. In a way it was like this very place was the heart of their love for one another. Just as human's most have mother's so must love, and this place was the mother of their love. A grin had slowly inched across June's face as she looked towards Sammy. Gently he ran her finger across his firm jawbone and casually pressed his lips against hers for just a brief moment before separating again. "It's always nice to go back to the roots of things. Especially the roots of us."

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are you my forever? {arrows} Oct 14, 2015 15:19:04 GMT -5

Post by knuckles on Oct 14, 2015 15:19:04 GMT -5

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Sammy Gustav

For the longest time, it felt like the entire world was falling apart. Without her here by my side, nothing was alright. I didn’t know if she was dead or alive or what the peacekeepers had done to her the day they took her away. I can kind of understand the pain of families being torn apart by the games. June Rhodes is my entire life. She’s the reason I wake up each and every morning. She’s my bright and morning star. The light of my world. I honestly can’t imagine my life without her. It’s been a long road since we first started talking about four years ago. She never once judged me for the way my foot drags across the ground because the muscles don’t work. She never once made fun of me, and that makes all the difference. It’s everything that I’ve wanted in life. A chance to break free of the grasp my mom had on me. It took a while, but I’ve finally done it.

I finally broke free.

A large grin plasters against my face as the gentle breeze crept through the air rustling through the leaves as they began to fall from the trees for the fall season. Fall is one of my favorite times of the year. The way the trees change colors in the distance, yet most of the time it is all blocked away by the many factories polluting the sky. It’s amazing that even just a few trees continue to breathe. Each breath draws in a new reality. One for a wonderful future if June agrees to become my wife. Oh it’s the day I’m longing for. A chance to share the world with my best friend. I want to hold her forever and let her know that I won’t ever leave her side. That I’ll stay with her throughout all ages.

Back to where it all began. I’ll never forget the day I walked out of school to find her seated on a bench underneath the trees. We had our first conversation here. We’ve talked together. We’ve done all kinds of things together. We’ve laughed. We’ve cried. We’ve been apart, but even the mile away hasn’t ruined the love I developed for her. Finding her broken body by the train track changed my entire life. Seeing her again. Just knowing that she was alive meant the entire world to me. I thought my life was coming to an end until then. Mom worried about me. She wanted me to find help. All I needed was my sweet June back. I made a promise to May Rhodes. I promised her I would watch after June. I promised to take care of her, but my love doesn’t stem from that. It all began right here when I first laid eyes on her.

Carefully, one hands slides into my pocket where the makeshift ring is hidden while my other hand continues to rest gently in her’s. Just knowing that she’s here by my side makes me feel alive. Together we’ve been through alot, and I fully believe together we can conquer the mountains and valleys that rest before us. Together we make a team. A team has a stronger bond than any individual. Yet this moment is one I want to last forever. Her voice echoes through my mind. Three simple words that have far more meaning than I even understood until now. I love you.

Love is such a powerful four letter word. Love is kind. Love doesn’t boast. Love helps one another when the other person has fallen. It helps to bring them back up in the mess of a world instead of kicking them while they’re down. Every single part of this moment is love. Mom always swore I would know when I found the true love of my life. She swore that there’s a feeling that’s impossible to describe, and she’s correct. Butterflies dance around inside my stomach. All I want to do is focus on her. She makes me smile even in the darkest of storms. June is my forever, and hopefully she’ll return the favor. Hopefully we can spend the rest of our lives together.

As I stare at the bench where we first met, I look away. My arms flail at my side as I try to make sense of what’s happening. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. It’s a chance to show her that I do care about her, and that I will always care about her no matter what happens. I’ll love her through sickness, through agony, through whatever life may throw our way. I’ll always stand by her side. I’ll always make sure she’s happy no matter what happens. I want her to feel safe. I want to work to keep us alive. Seeing her face lights my way. It makes me the happiest man on earth because I have found my one true love.

"It's always nice to go back to the roots of things. Especially the roots of us."

Taking a deep breath, I stop walking, and I turn to stare at her. Her words are so true. I’ve never heard any words truer than this. Removing my hand from my pocket, I carefully take her other hand into mine. A smile twists across my face into a goofy grin. I make sure my eyes meet her’s before I finally begin speaking. “Yeah. It’s always nice to return here.” My heart leaps inside my chest racing like a racehorse. I can feel the blood flowing to my face turning my cheeks a bright red, but after a couple quick breaths, I finally calm myself back down.

“June, I love you so much more than any words can describe. You’re my morning star. The light of my world. You’re my everything. I can’t imagine my life without you. I want to be with you forever.” I can feel myself growing anxious as I stumble over my words, and truthfully, I’m unsure of what to do next. “You’re the one person I live to see each and every day.” Making sure I keep eye contact with her, I try to figure out what to say next without sounding like a total idiot. I’ve never dreamed this day would come. I never imagined I would find someone I want to share the rest of my life with. Slowly, I slide a shaky hand into my pocket as I lower myself down onto one knee. Removing the makeshift ring, I open the palm of my hand before looking into her eyes once more.

“June Rhodes, will you marry me?”