Paladin Hale || D5 || FIN

grim. Capitol Resident 1,081 POSTS last seen Sept 30, 2020 18:45:26 GMT -5	Paladin Hale \|\| D5 \|\| FIN Apr 18, 2016 22:48:02 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by grim. on Apr 18, 2016 22:48:02 GMT -5 Paladin Hale Eighteen\|District Five\|Male FC: Konstantin Quandt
	Last Edit: Apr 22, 2016 10:41:23 GMT -5 by grim. where my demons hide.

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Paladin Hale || D5 || FIN Apr 18, 2016 22:54:41 GMT -5

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Post by grim. on Apr 18, 2016 22:54:41 GMT -5

P A L A D I N H A L E

"There was a time, when I was alone. Nowhere to go, and no place to call home. My only friend was the man on the moon, and even sometimes he would go away too."

    Born into a family of theives, I was the first to rid of of the habit. Our faces are known among our district. Saxton is to thank for our fame, but she has also stolen our right to seclusion. All of the district has discovered our struggles, our kinks, all of the things that make us so disfunctional. Fathers drinking has become heavier, while mothers nights have beome longer. I have lost my best friend. Saxon is gone, and there isnt a soul who knows how much I care.

    Many call me a coward, running from my family in shame. Saxton was my eldest sister and I longed to protect her, for us to protect eachother. Ive always been told that we were spitting images of eachother, and perhaps that is because we were. My hair radiated the same auburn brown, my eyes dull saphire. There was nothing that could rip the bond of our blood. Well except for the almighty Capitol. I had always been taller then Saxton, more muscular, but this was due to my endless hours in the refinery. I worked hard labor to keep us fed. Don'y get me wrong she worked her ass off also, dealing with trade and trickery. Conning us the extra money to live happily.

    When I was fifteen, and she sixteen, we had rumaged enough cash to get a place of our own. A home that we could feel safe, a home that we could feel loved. I loved Saxton with all of my heart, possibly in more ways then one. I idiolized her, because she gave me the strength to run away from my own demons. To run from those that brought me into a world that only began with fiery flames. But she also gave me the strength to be at ease with my demons. Since my sisters passing I still have made no contact with our former family. I remain in a house with only empty sound, and empty hearts. I remain alone because I couldn'y go back.

    On the day of her death I had been working in the refinery. I watched as she fell, and my heart fell into the pits of hell just as quickly as she did. To this day I have been incapable of recovering what I lost. My chest remains empty, and it is impossible for me to imagine it ever returning. I have lost my only purpouse, the only beacon for happiness I left for myself. I have pondered the idea of kissing the lustful demon death, but though I have nothing to live for...I also have nothing to die for. I am desperate for a sense of relief, for another meaning. Shall the nights filled with sinful shadows become my relm?

    I began a search for something that could give me meaning. I needed a purpose, because I couldn't go on working until death, what a lonely life that would be. On my journey I found plenty of men and plenty of women, thirsting for an ounce of pleasure. Many of them I consented, but many I couldn't bring myself to become vulnerable. I found substances that made my skin rot, and substances that made my chest ache. I found black eyes, and welling tears, but what I never came a crossed was an eraser for my fears.

    I eventually came to the conclusion that I was incapable of loving anyone else but she. I was incapable of a purpose without the approval of her grace. I worshipped the ground Saxton Hale walked on, and now my trail has run dry. Her footprints can no longer be found, and her presents can no longer be felt. I was lost in this world, and there was no one in hell looking for me.

    A lost boy is what I have become, and a lost boy is what I would stay. I've decided I don't want to be found. I want to live in a world of my own sulk and shame, because I fill myself with pity. I am destroying myself day by day, and it all is because I am a boy who can no longer love. A lost boy with a lost heart, I pray that someone will send me something to hope for, but I am done searching, I am done trying.

    They say after your body gives up, next will be the soul, and soon after everything deteriorates. I am already a walking corpse, please I beg of you, let my skin crumble, let my bones become one with the earth, let my eyes be pecked out by ravens, and let my blood spill. Put me out of my misery, because I don't have the strength to do so myself. A lost boy, with a lost heart, shed thy light on me.

"Then one night as I closed my eyes, I saw a shadow flying high. She came to be with the sweetest smile, told me she wanted to talk for a while."

district five . eighteen . word count:902.table by Arx <3

Last Edit: Apr 22, 2016 10:40:55 GMT -5 by grim.

where my demons hide.

grim. Capitol Resident 1,081 POSTS last seen Sept 30, 2020 18:45:26 GMT -5	Paladin Hale \|\| D5 \|\| FIN Apr 22, 2016 10:42:55 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by grim. on Apr 22, 2016 10:42:55 GMT -5 fin.
	where my demons hide.

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	where my demons hide.

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