Clara Thneadle D8// fin

  FC: Francesca Capaldi 

   People think that just because I'm 12 that I don't know anything, but they're wrong. I know a lot of things. I mean sure, maybe I pretend to not know anything but it's PRETENDING.

    Believe it or not, I like to think about philosophy and existence and how futile it all is but not math because I'm bad at math. I mean sure, I also like  to think about cats and blankets and boys with nice hair but, who doesn't? And I like flowery dresses but, who says a girly girl can't like to think about how horrible life can be occasionally and also flowers sometimes.

  Momma says that I need to focus on school and knitting and not getting reaped. But I think that that's garbage. School? All we do there is learn about thread and machinery and although the machine parts are kinda interesting sometimes, the school tends to focus more on the the thread. 

    Maybe if they'd taught more about machinery in schools, Momma would have two thumbs and not one thumb and a sad stump. And maybe if Momma had both thumbs she wouldn't make me knit everything for everyone and I would be able to have new dresses without accidentally stabbing myself with the needle and then getting blood all over it. 

  And honestly getting reaped might not be so bad all things considered. I wouldn't have to knit and learn about thread anymore and the capital would make me my clothes. Also, I'd have more nondairy food items which would be great because honestly, dairy is frightening to me. Daddy died because of his allergies to it and I don't wanna end up like daddy. 

 

  If I were reaped maybe I'd have to eat other people and that seems kinda neat I wonder what that tastes like that makes me excited. That was a joke! I'd like to think I'm pretty funny but other kids don't seem to think so, they think I'm weird and have an awkward laugh because I like to think about life, cannibalism and equality and also I kinda snort a little when I laugh. 

 Sometimes I feel like the only reason anyone talks to me at all, is because they think my hair is neat. Everyone always talks about how cool it is that it's so bouncy and curly and red. But sometimes I feel like that's my only positive feature. My face is kinda chubby and the rest of me is kinda smallish.  Whenever I tell my mom about that she always says that it's just because I'm twelve but I don't know.also my face isn't very symmetrical and feel like my feet look weird which Momma agrees with. She says it's because I never wear shoes. She also says I have dimples but, that's probably a lie.

 

   One day I hope to be really good at something and maybe get married and get a lot of dogs and cats because they're soft and also I might end up running away if I don't get dogs. If I were to die accidentally while running away it'd be ok because I don't believe in a ripred or an afterlife so it'd just be like turning off life's lights which sounds nice. Sometimes I like to think about that while dancing and kicking things. By sometimes I mean when I'm not doing anything else usually because it's fun. I now have pretty strong legs that I could probably use to murder someone and eat the body parts to. haha.