banks . eleven [fin]

pogue Graphics 1,890 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Oct 19, 2024 11:07:44 GMT -5 Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?	banks . eleven [fin] Jan 6, 2021 21:50:38 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pogue on Jan 6, 2021 21:50:38 GMT -5 Banks Blackmoore . Eighteen . The best damn bull rider in all of Eleven
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Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?

banks . eleven [fin] Jan 7, 2021 21:56:39 GMT -5

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Post by pogue on Jan 7, 2021 21:56:39 GMT -5

B A N K S

There’s still the forgotten smoke of a cigarette laced between my teeth, bottle of dip spit tossed into the dirt and the dust below me, the dip it came from pressed into my lower lip.

If Pops were here he’d have called this the eye of the storm.

I count my own heartbeats as my eyes wander, following the trails of noise to the screaming mouths of the spectators. I squint until they’re no more than shapeless figures, blurred and moving in the distance. It’s wishful thinking caught up in my own heartbeats, that if I focus so little the screaming spectators can almost look like the soft ebb and flow of the forests I was born in, blue skies and bird songs the chorus to my childhood as a wanderer. It was simpler then, before we slipped out of the sanctuary and fell into the real world, used the various tips and tricks we’d all learned to make ourselves the lifeblood of Eleven’s underground entertainment, before I put myself on the back of a beast and dared against my own heartbeat as to how long I could hold on for. I remember that life like a storm that’s already passed, no more than soft rumblings in the distance and scattered puddles quick to dry.

But it’s like Pops always said: ya can’t live in the eye of the storm forever, sooner or later you gotta learn what the waves feel like.

The horn blares, the crowd jeers, the gates open and the animal I’m on bucks and throws itself out to the screams of the audience. My grip tightens and my heart hammers in my chest.

The eye of the storm blinks as I’m carried forward, out into the storm and the waves.

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pogue Graphics 1,890 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Oct 19, 2024 11:07:44 GMT -5 Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?	banks . eleven [fin] Jan 17, 2021 15:03:08 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pogue on Jan 17, 2021 15:03:08 GMT -5 Fin! Using 1 of my 5 CB’s from Ratmas 2021 baybee <3 ripred_bot

pogue Graphics 1,890 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Oct 19, 2024 11:07:44 GMT -5 Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?	banks . eleven [fin] Jan 19, 2021 22:07:09 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pogue on Jan 19, 2021 22:07:09 GMT -5 Bump!

umber vivuus 12b 🥀 [dars] Administrator 7,890 POSTS last seen Nov 10, 2024 12:18:19 GMT -5 — 🥀 —	banks . eleven [fin] Jan 20, 2021 13:16:50 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by umber vivuus 12b 🥀 [dars] on Jan 20, 2021 13:16:50 GMT -5 "dip spit" took some years off my life but u know what good for him
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