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calla RP Tutor 2,122 POSTS Pronouns: she/they last seen Apr 23, 2024 23:49:00 GMT -5 just a litle creacher	inga vanas. d4 cb Jan 24, 2022 14:46:21 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by calla on Jan 24, 2022 14:46:21 GMT -5 inga vanas after church, you lay in bed and curve your body into itself. / you are a moon being pierced by its own edges. — Theresa Lola, In Search of Equilibrium ashes 2 ashes
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Post by calla on Jan 24, 2022 23:28:46 GMT -5

Even though they're twins, Lieke is prettier than her. She's kinder. Softer. And walking to school, Inga doesn't know why that bothers her but it does.

She's never had the luxury of being soft. At this point, she wouldn't know how to. Her family's split down the middle like a stack of coins and Inga's left balancing somewhere on the edge, silver shavings under her nails.

Edda at least tries, more anxiety than anything else, but Vincent never takes anything seriously enough. Inga doesn't hate Johannes, in fact she loves her brother, idolized him once, but she knows he isn't what he's supposed to be. She knows she's better. She's the top of her class, the first in the training roster, always high on the leaderboard after sparring. She finished her trial in record time and barely even grazed two weeks, the tide was high when she came home in a different boat than she left in, covered in splinters and sea-water.

She's half of a set but she's never really felt like herself. She's a series of accomplishments, just a name and never a person. And sometimes even that's not enough. One of the new tutors mistakes her for Inta and asks how her family finally ended up finding her. Lieke brings all her Valentine cards home on the same day.

It hurts until it doesn't. Inga throws herself into being something better, she pushes herself into being the best, until her name is better known than Inta's, until she doesn't look like Lieke anymore, until she doesn't even look like herself.

She works herself to the bone. It's like her life is one big trial - anything that isn't perfection isn't good enough.

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calla RP Tutor 2,122 POSTS Pronouns: she/they last seen Apr 23, 2024 23:49:00 GMT -5 just a litle creacher	inga vanas. d4 cb Jan 24, 2022 23:30:30 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by calla on Jan 24, 2022 23:30:30 GMT -5 ripred_bot ratmas cb 1/5 yep yep
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kap Retired Staff 6,017 POSTS Pronouns: they/them last seen Apr 27, 2024 10:23:44 GMT -5 goomy goomy on the brain	inga vanas. d4 cb Jan 25, 2022 7:20:08 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by kap on Jan 25, 2022 7:20:08 GMT -5 "Her family's split down the middle like a stack of coins and Inga's left balancing somewhere on the edge, silver shavings under her nails." Ooh, I love this line and I love her!
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