Enough...

... is enough.

I can't do this anymore, guys. I'm out.

Truth is, I haven't been happy here for a long time. In the past I've loved everyone and everything about this site dearly, but as of late I just can't remember why. Every bit of fun I used to get out of this place has been sucked out by pretending that I want to be here when I just can't convince myself that I have a reason to stay online. Posts have always been difficult for me to get done on time- sometimes at all- but nowadays I can't even force myself to want them. Hell, I can't force myself to want to want them. Some of the plots and characters I've been involved with used to get me so excited that I babbled to my friends for eons about them, but even those can't snag me anymore. Not MBand, not the Games- not even Aranica, who was always one of my easiest to write for. What minimal enjoyment I get out of this place comes from reading other people's threads, but even that is tainted because reading others' posts reminds me of how little I want to continue RPing.

I know that I could stay here without characters, but I can't even get into cbox conversations anymore. The connections I used to find so easily with the entirety of the membership, even those I've known for years, are gone. Maybe they're lurking somewhere in... I don't know, in the back of Cecilia's closet. But I doubt it, because I've been genuinely trying, for months now, to figure it out. I love so many of you, but more often than not I feel like I'm loving out of habit

That is not- let me repeat, not not not NOT- because any of you have done something wrong. Do some things exasperate me more than they used to? Sure. But that's me being... whatever this is, not anyone here. This site is made of nothing but wonderful, creative, kind, clever people. All of you have been wonderful to me, and this is a horrible way to repay you. It's the only way I know, though. This has to be a clean break, or I'll be lingering here forever, or at least until I get so fed up that I explode on someone who doesn't deserve it.

Thanks for the great times and the awesome writing, guys. Even though the past little while has been tough, I will always cherish all the good memories I have of this site.

Someday I might come back, but I don't anticipate it. Until then, if it ever comes, so long, dears.

Run like the river.

-~-WT

























If any of you actually believed this, I am disappointed in you.
April Fool's. :D

In all seriousness, I love you guys, and if I ever leave it will not be this abrupt. Also, odds are good that there will be about seven thousand PMs going out, because I couldn't bear to leave without saying something to everyone I care about. Which is a lot of people. :3 So yeah.

I really wanted to take down Cecilia and say that cbox.ws had accidentally deleted some of the 'boxes, including ours, in a mix-up. But I didn't get around to saying anything to the other staff about it, and I wouldn't want to do something like that without warning. Also, it would be really easy to circumvent by just going to the url. Besides, I like talking to ya'll, and I can't do that if Ceci's not there. Yay, selfish reasons for not playing pranks!