.::[[A New Beginning]]::. {The Uprising}
Dec 6, 2010 12:39:49 GMT -5
Post by Meeka on Dec 6, 2010 12:39:49 GMT -5
♣ Ariana Lyra Alassë ♣
Time waits for no one,
So do you want to waste some time,
Oh, oh tonight?
So do you want to waste some time,
Oh, oh tonight?
To say that I am frustrated, is a severe understatement. In fact, I am considering just leaving the Uprising, if I did not feel like I owe it to myself and to Devroux. With a frustrated sigh, I leave the childish squabble that had formed, well-aware that no one has been paying any attention to me, and return to my spot in the background, next to Devroux. It isn't that I feel as if I am above fighting, it is just that my upbringing taught me that issues can be resolved just as well through talk and logic. Clearly, the initiates here have absolutely no idea what logic or verbal communication is. Trudging back, I stuff my hands into the pockets of my worn labcoat and throw Devroux a look that acutely portrays my irritation at the situation.
Gritting my teeth, I survey the room and the people with a practiced cool, psychoananalyzing them and their behaviour without them being aware of the fact. It is something that I tend to do subconsciously, a trait that my natural silence and observing personality brought with it. But no matter how much I try to twist the situation, to somehow make it shine in a better light, the task that stands before me seems an impossible one.
They are all acting like prehistoric animals. It bugs me that no one is being at all rational and more so, that there is a lack of trust in one another. It is that what is grating on my nerves. When one of the girls actually physically attacks a much younger girl, accusing her of being a spy, my anger finally ebbs over the surface. I step away from the stone wall that had until then successfully been keeping me nicely hidden, pushing away from it and walking over to Griffin Tucker's side.
When he had appointed me for the job of Counselor, I had expressed my doubts but finally agreed with him that I would be best for the job, taking my relative patience into consideration. But this... I do not know if I can deal with such savages. Not with people who put their self-righteous moods before the good of the group. This "look after number one" attitude that the many vibes around the room are sending me, just does not agree with my own views of a group. This is supposed to be an organised group of rebels, but at this rate it is much more likely that everyone is going to off each other, even without the Capitols help.
"Griffin," after a short pause, I continue, "why aren't you doing anything? You're the leader after all." So maybe the accusatory tone at the end of my statement was a little too much, but I could not help it. "Look at them," I say tersely. "Do you really think that they will know how to hold together and keep the rebellion strong, without falling to pieces themselves? They may think that their aggressive perseverance shows strength, but they're wrong. Before we can even begin fighting the Capitol, we have to learn how to trust each other."
I don't abhor fighting. I'm perfectly willing to kill, if there is a reason for me to do so. What I don't agree with is the irrational use of violence. I do not consider violence to be particularly daunting, in fact, I believe people who act aggressively to be weak. To hurt a fellow human being is easier than most people believe, and I feel that for most it is far easier to lash out at others, for fear of showing weakness, than to emphasize or to trust, to resolve matters in a peaceful, intelligent manner. It does not do to have weak people in a group of rebels and I hope that Griffin will see it in that way as well, because those who use violence for violence's sake are actually the weak links to a chain because underneath all of that distrust and hate, they're all broken souls.
I narrow my eyes at Chambers. I hope that I can have a counsel session with her at some point, she seems interesting. I smile sweetly at her before turning my attention back to Griffin. "This will be more difficult than I had originally anticipated, Griffin."