|More Than What We R§VP'd For.| {Piscatus}
Sept 19, 2011 20:52:47 GMT -5
Post by Stare on Sept 19, 2011 20:52:47 GMT -5
[/center]Silver Emmend
Yeah, let's just close our eyes
And pretend it's all gonna be okay.
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When she hugs me, I don't push her away. I don't resist. But I don't embrace her either. I just sit there and let the tears run down my face, as unfazed as if the wind were hugging me instead of the girl who swears a lot. I overhear the question of what's happening, as well as the familiar boy's answer, and it's all I can do not to break down again. It's all true- there's no hiding from it any longer. Things are only going to get worse from this point forward, so I might as well get strong now. Be strong for Yucca, even though I can't even protect her right now because of my stupid mistake. And now I have to make things right again, but it's just so much and I'm only fourteen (almost fifteen) years old. I close my eyes and tilt my head downward, into her shoulder, suddenly welcoming the comfort.
"Please," I whisper, but it is muffled and so very quiet that I doubt anyone heard it. Please. Please, help me save Yucca. Please, give me some words of comfort. Please, let her be okay. Please, someone, come up with a plan. Please, get me out of here. I know it's a lot to ask of them, but it's so much easier than asking it all of myself. If we keep on acting like we're all individuals and not a team, we will get nothing done. We won't save Yucca. The realization hits me hard. I'm doing nothing for her by letting them act like they can't do anything to save themselves. I look up again, my eyes still shining with tears. "We have to do something. We aren't helpless here- as far as we know, there's one of them, and... well, more of us. And seeing as no one else is going to, I guess that I have to be the one to say that we can do this." Even if I don't believe it. "Now's the time to act- we're together and we're ready." I hold myself together for about one more second before the tears come again, but even then I force myself to look determined. We can do this.
I guess that the easiest lies to tell are the ones we tell ourselves.[/color][/size][/blockquote][/justify]