once upon a {time} Rook
Aug 23, 2012 9:41:52 GMT -5
Post by rook on Aug 23, 2012 9:41:52 GMT -5
Reave McFallon
[/size][/blockquote]it's empty in the valley of your heart
the sun it rises slowly as you walk
away from all the fears
and all the faults you left behind
A lone cloud drifts overhead, a wisp of white that flurries across the baron sky. It seems lost as it briefly touches the sun, giving us barely a few seconds of precious shade before it moves on. I stare at it, for it reminds me of myself. Alone, with one hand on glory, but not quite there yet. I need to be more robust than the cloud - Bigger so that I can get a firmer grip on my dreams and ambitions. To do that, I need to work, not play.
And so a secluded place is where I have asked to be taken. Somewhere private to push myself and continue my daily training, whilst still being able to socialize with Marina. I'd take her back to my place, but it's somewhat inhabitable. A dungeon, a chanber of pain... Oh, and I wouldn't want her to hear what I hear: The gears. If she hears them down in my cellar, if she even hears them for a second... If she goes down and sees them turning for all eternity in that dark, damp, wretched place... Then they become all too real.
And reality isn't something I want to get too familiar with.
I'm simple. I'm not smart, nor funny, nor overly attractive. All I have to go on is my physical shape. I have to cherish what little talent I have. I have to perfect it, for it is a gift bless to me by the divines. I'm not a strong believer in Ripred, but I do believe that I am here for a reason. My path, my destiny is set before me. I cannot stray from it, even if I have found someone I can relate to. Someone who's just as mad as me.
She suggests the graveyard, and I nod in approval. I care not for the dead, nor do I respect them. That much was beaten into me at a young age by my obsessive father. You can't have a Career who respects the dead. One who's scared of killing, or even fears death, to an extent. The psychological lengths that he went to in order to give me that mindset were unmentionable. Methods that shouldn't be used on a ten year old. Killing small animals at first, then stray dogs. Getting into the flow of murder. For a child, it's not right. It showed me the fire of homicide, what it would be like to kill a fellow human. It wasn't a crime, it was a neccessity. It taught me that no child should feel that pressure, and that the dead are lucky to be apart from it. They feel no burn. They feel no pain at all. No tear of lactic nor aching of limb. Nothing. I don't pity the dead, I envy them.
"Lead the way" I smile. She describes the Graveyard to be such a shrouded and forgotten place. I hope it is, because I don't like people watching me work out. Marina is an exception - I'm trying to show off. I feel I have a point to prove, and that throwing rocks isn't enough.
My bare feet meet softer earth as we walk. More damp and loose, it finds it's way between each of my toes. Dirt. I'm not a fan of dirt, so grimy and horrible. The stainer of skin. I've always hoped for a snowy arena for my reaping, if it ever comes. I wonder how I will react if it ever does happen. Will I be glorious, or in shock? I've always been against Volunteering. If I'm going to go in there, I want to be picked. Selected by the gods to do battle. My calling. I will never take second to some sniveling coward who stands crying on the stage. I will not be second choice.
I follow the dark haired girl, looking at her deep blue eyes. So lost. I have no idea where this Graveyard is, for I very rarely go out. Most my life I have been inside, like a hermit. This is so rare for me that I begin to get goosebumps. I need to start pumping again. I need the comfort of pain.
"You were saying how you've 'Seen better'... Who? Where?" I ask as we walk. I'm of course referring to my throw. Whoever threw a rock further than me must have been one hell of a guy. My throws are perfect, and there aren't many bigger than me.the harvest left no food for you to eat
you cannibal you meat eater you see
but i have seen the same
i know the shame in your defeat
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theme~ 'The Cave' by Mumford and Sons.
notes~ Sorry this took a while, my muse took a nosedive.