The price of the passage (LOST plot)
Aug 9, 2012 19:59:57 GMT -5
Post by aquatic mammalian wh0re on Aug 9, 2012 19:59:57 GMT -5
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I no longer feel anything.
No satisfaction from killing the mutt overflows within me. Nothing makes me jump for joy as I see it's dead, and Nick is alive. Why should I be happy? What has he ever done for me? He's done nothing but inflict both emotional and physical pain on me. At least Lexi was a good person, willing to do so much for us. I liked her. She was the only decent person here. Actually, maybe Elizabeth isn't so bad, but I hardly know her.
I hear Nick's voice from beneath the tree on him and Lexi. He says my name, and my eyes flutter over to where he is. He's looking at me, with a glint of realization in eyes. I turn away, my heart still empty of any emotion. I don't know how to feel right now. I can't recall any of us ever getting a thanks or an apology from him. So, he deserves nothing of the sort.
I hear him trying to wake Lexi up, and I think it's hopeless until I hear a small mutter from what must be her mouth. Well, at least she's alive. Maybe she can make things a tad bit more bearable around here.
"Are you okay? I was worred for a second. You hit your head pretty hard," says Nick. Worried? I don't believe it. Why should he care? He hasn't cared at all until now. Maybe all of us coming and risking our own lives to save his sorry ass has made something click.
It dawns on me that we're all trying to keep him alive for some reason. Until now, the reason for my actions was evident. Some heartbroken, love stricken kid trying to protect the person he loves. I should have just let him die. It would have been easier for me to just go on without him. Even, no, especiallu if we were to be stuck on this island forever. I don't know how much longer I can tolerate being with him. At least until he mans up and admits everything.
Maybe there is nothing to admit. Maybe his apologies and thank yous are and always will be nonexistent. There are plenty of other things I never got from him.
Nick suddenly calls out for us to help. Looks like we've got to come to the rescue, once again. I sulk over to the fallen tree, not for him, but for Lexi. I'd like to make sure she's okay. I just hope I can shake off this gloominess I have looming over me. A grump is no help.
I wave Elizabeth over, signaling for her to come and help get the two out from under the tree. I don't know if we can lift it, but if we can it won't be for long. We'll just have to do it for enough time for them to slide out from underneath. This tree must be really heavy on them.
Not like I feel bad about it.