Silveя Liиiиg [Sunny]
Nov 13, 2012 2:38:09 GMT -5
Post by cass on Nov 13, 2012 2:38:09 GMT -5
Your eyes they tie me down so hard
I'll never learn to put up a guard
So keep my love, my candle bright
Learn me hard, oh learn me right
This ain't no sham
I'll never learn to put up a guard
So keep my love, my candle bright
Learn me hard, oh learn me right
This ain't no sham
Confessions were not something that Tiberius had expected to leap from Hopper Goravich’s mouth. He listened in growing horror. For a brief second a look of disgust crossed his face, it was no more then a flicker, and it would be hard for Hopper to even see it had been there. Yet, it still filled him. Disgust. He was horrified with the boy that sat in his room and yet he felt a certain amount of sympathy for him and he couldn’t help it, he liked that fact that hopper was gay, that Hopper was like him. He brushed that thought aside, scolding himself for even thinking it. He was listening to a boy that had done so much wrong, had done so much that it made Tiberius want to back away in disgust.
But he found himself staying put, he found his eyes staying glued to Hopper‘s face as the boy shamelessly told him everything, his lips moving, the words falling. He wanted to know why Hopper was telling him all this, he wanted to know why Hopper had done what he had done. He didn’t even care that he loved Klaus, that didn’t bother him. Love was love no matter who it was with, his mother had always said that, she had said that everyday to him. Her words echoed in his mind, and he knew that he could easily tell Hopper that loving his brother in that way didn’t matter. Love was the strongest magic in the world; you had no choice of the people you loved. You got to chose who you fell in love with, but whether or not the love would grow you had no control over.
Tiberius was disgusted though. It was one thing to fall in with your brother –something that didn’t worry Tiberius. But it was another thing entirely to fuck another one of your siblings. Tiberius resisted the urge to flinch away from hopper. The dry heaves had stopped to only one every few minutes and the air was tainted with the smell of vomit. It filled the air and it made Tiberius feel sick in the back of his throat. He jumped to his feet and hastily opened up the window that was in the room. It took a far bit of tugging on his part, but that kind of thing was expected when the window had not been open for over three years.
When Tiberius was four he could clearly remember walking up one morning to find the space beside him stone cold, the ever reassuring warmth of his mother was no longer there. He had spent days from then on searching for her, waiting often till the moon was at its zenith, knowing that if he slept he would miss her. But weeks passed and no one came to his rescue, and the hope that he had balled up in him begun to loosen until it all, but fled him. He could remember clearly as the day it happened, feeling the cold wrap around him, freezing his heart until he ached, and until the ache faded with the pressure of the ice that froze him. The loneliness seemed to fill the air, in a way that when he breathed he could feel it fill his lungs, but when he let the air out the loneliness hugged him and he knew he couldn’t escape it. He never had. Over ten years later and the strands of it still clung to him.
And as he gazed disgusted eyes onto Hopper he couldn’t help, but feel the boy’s pain. He knew that he had never faced the same problem, but he also knew that Hopper would feel lonely right now. There would be not one single soul in the world who would not frown down upon him and his actions. Hopper had done the unspeakable, incest was not taken lightly, and everyone knew that. Tiberius took a deep breath, instantly regretting it; he coughed viciously, feeling the vile taste fill his mouth and his throat. He turned teary eyes away from the figure that lay on the couch. He knew that he had to say something, to say nothing would be wrong, but the words he wanted to stay were stuck in his throat. He wanted to tell Hopper that he had done wrong, but he also knew what use would that be?
Tiberius Haze was gay, he liked men, to say that incest is wrong, that would be no better then what he was, but it was also because he knew that everyone would have immediately shunned him and he knew that right now Hopper had no one. He knew that in a time when he would need people everyone would run from him, fearing what he was. No he could not run from Hopper, he could not leave him and walk away. His mother had done that to him, he was not her, he was him and he was going to stay.
”Hopper Goravich, you have made many mistakes, from what I have just heard there are mistakes –to put this lightly- that are vile enough to shun those of others I have known. But,” He said the words softly, he knew he was being harsh, but he knew that an honest boy, an honest person was better then a liar. Liar’s covered up the truths and Tiberius might be a drug dealer, he might be a thief and a loser, but above all else he was not a liar. “You aren’t a monster, you aren’t anything, but Hopper. You can’t change who you are, you are born that way and there is nothing a god damn person can do to change it. People don’t fall in love because they have to they do it because that person is like them, they see something in them that others don’t. You can’t shape a person to fit another, it never works.”
He looked at Hopper evenly, his eyes never leaving his. And for a brief second it crossed him mind and a bitter laugh almost escaped his lips; how had he gotten into this situation?
"The first thing you can do, is stop feeling sorry for yourself. Get up and walk proud, don't let anyone screw you over and make you think less of yourself. No matter what you have done you are still a good guy, everyone deserves a second chance. Some people say they have had to many and that is because none of them have actually taken that chance and used it. They let it go to waste, so I need you to tell me right now that you are going to take a second chance, flip everything around and get it around your head that you may love him but nothing will ever happen." He took at deep breath, but he never once stopped staring at Hopper, if it wasn't for the vomit he would have gone over to him and grabbed his hands, he would have held him and told him to understand. But he didn't.
I am what I am
Though I may speak some tongue of old
Or even spit out some holy word
I have no strength from which to speak
When you sit me down, and see I'm weak
Though I may speak some tongue of old
Or even spit out some holy word
I have no strength from which to speak
When you sit me down, and see I'm weak
ooc -- [ I love these two <3 ^.^]
Sadness will be far away
So as we walked through fields of green
Was the fairest sun I'd ever seen
And I was broke, I was on my knees
And you said yes as I said please
So as we walked through fields of green
Was the fairest sun I'd ever seen
And I was broke, I was on my knees
And you said yes as I said please