Spotlight Fever [Chaos]
Sept 2, 2010 7:23:43 GMT -5
Post by Meeka on Sept 2, 2010 7:23:43 GMT -5
Penny Leonte:
I'm freezing cold, but then again, I don't have anything much warmer to wear. The thin fabric of my white dress clings to my body much like that of a straitjacket. Not that I ever want to have to wear anything like it again. After having spent hours with my arms pressed painfully close to my chest, exhausted after running at the walls and screaming, and screaming, and screaming.
After all that, I can barely stand having the clothing at such close proximity to my skin. Thinking about the asylum, after having fled it a year ago, sends a wave of panic rising up my chest and I can barely prevent myself from clawing the white dress from my body. I manage in the end but there are thin, telltale scratches up and down my arms where I attacked the raw skin instead of the garment.
The theatre kids at the company I am working at are on stage. Last time I crawled to the side wings where I sat, mesmerised by the dancing children and teenagers, where they twirled under the spotlight. But then the attendent caught me and after getting a scolding - where I spent the most part staring transfixedly at the cracks in the far wall - I was sent back to sewing up costumes. Now I don't dare to sneak up to the side wings anymore to glance at the stage. I walk with my head bowed, not wanting to get into any more trouble.
I haven't learned the names of the dancers yet but it's always the same people. I fix their costumes and apply the makeup - but I'm still in the process of learning how to dab it on lightly. I accidentally once poked one of the dancers in the eye with a thin black brush used for the eyelashes. The punishment I got afterwards still makes it difficult for me to sit down without wincing. But then again, anything is preferable to being back in the asylum.
I could live off the street and somehow fend for myself but District 3 isn't a very poor district. Plus, stealing is too dangerous to attempt and getting caught would be fatal. There is a loud ringing voice coming from the studio where the dancers practice. The Madam (as I like to call the instructor) is yelling at one of her students. I'm guessing that someone messed up their spin, though I find the fuss made over something like that ridiculous.
There is more shouting and then the door to the studio is knocked wide open and the twenty or so students storm out and over to the changing rooms. I dart sideways and into the dressing room, hoping against hope that the instructor failed to see me outside my assigned station.