Forgetting Pain (Chaos)

I laugh a musical laugh. I haven't laughed like that in such a long time. Not since...
I don't finish my sentence. I promised Flight I would never leave again, and to be able to resist the temptation, I can't be thinking regretable thoughts that end with 'since I joined the rebels'. It's not a good idea. But still, the tension inside me is growing. The bad thing is wanting to let loose, to break free. What could it be, though? What horrible thing could I possibly do? I've already killed someone, have someone almost commit suicide because of me, and kept secrets from people who trust me. What more could there be? Because I know it'll be something different, or else it wouldn't matter.
I shake my head, now. I'm supposed to be having fun. Well, as soon as we get back to the shore. And until we think of a way off the boulder, we're trapped. Ah, well. Maybe being trapped isn't so bad.
"Well, it might've been useful when you jumped off the cliff," I say, sitting down beside her. "Why did you do that in the first place?"

"Flight!" I gasp, recognizing the face almost immediately.
I grab her arm, even though she already pulled it back. Then I turn to the boy. "I am so sorry. She's very..." I look at Flight, my eyes mocking, "instinctive."
After splashing some water on his face, he looks at me with the same shy smile. "I heard you shouting. I thought you might need help."
I smile, my eyebrows raised. "Oh?"
Then I realize that I'm kind of flirting with him, and make my smile sincere.
"Actually, we could use some help," I say. "You see, Flight here can't swim. She might fight you a little, but if you can help her get back to shore, I promise you another dance."
He nods, his grin widening.
"Well?" I turn to Flight. "Think you'll be able to get to shore with as little damage to the poor guy as possible?"

I'm about to insist she comes to shore with us when suddenly a feel her arms around my waist and then nothingness as I sail through the air and into the water. I'm stunned for a moment, not really sure what happened and only aware that I can't breath. Then, having reality ease back, I surface.
And then Flight is there, looking me in the eyes.
"Go get your man."
I bite my lip unsurely. "Flight, I can't just leave you..."
Then I trail off. The throwing me off the boulder was a sure sign that I'm not allowed to argue with her on this one. Still, I stare at her, wishing I could pass those yellow walls as easily as I can on everyone else. But it would take too much effort, and now that one is blank and unseeing, it's harder than ever.
"You... you sure?" I say, secretly hoping she says yes. I'm sorry to admit it, but I kinda like this guy.
And dancing with him would help my mind... wander, a bit more. I've been getting too close to topics I don't want to think about tonight.
I look over at him, and his sincere smile makes me smile shyly back. Then I look back at Flight, my eyes raised questioningly.
You're positive?

I can see a hint of pain sneak into her eyes, and I feel bad about leaving her alone here. But then again, what am I supposed to say for an excuse to stay? Hey, my friend here really does on't want me to dance with you but still wants me to have a good time so I have to stay here and help her figure out a way off this boulder?
Yeah, right.
So giving Flight a still uncertain look, I push off the rock, swimming with the boy towards the shore. She'll figure a way off the boulder soon.
When we reach shore, I push my wet hair behind my ears and walk with him towards the dance floor. He grins as another fast song comes on, and I smile back.
He pulls me close and we begin to dance again, neither of us really as akward as before. The heat and the music makes me forget, helps me have fun again, unlike the silence of the boulder, where my thoughts could wander to things I didn't want to think about at the moment.
His hands wander low on my back then, cautiously though. Slowly and cautiously, and not too low, so I let them stay there, pretending I don't notice.
Then Flight comes back in my mind, and I silently wonder if she got off of the boulder yet. If so, she's probably drinking and maybe even getting ready to dance.
I hope she's having a good time.

The music seems to throb in time with my quick beating heart. I allow myself to, just for a moment, let go. Forget. Live. Just this once.
"Having fun?" he asks, probably seeing the light in my eyes.
"Yeah," I say, but he's pulled my out of my moment, and I feel myself slip back into awareness.
Suddenly, my eyes find Flight, slipping into the water. She seems pretty confident, but still, I'm a little worried. The memory of her telling me she didn't know how to swim just as she jumped off a cliff towards the lake.
And I definately can't forget the feeling of when I almost wasn't able to safe her.
"I'll... I'll be right back," I say distractedly, slipping out of his hands and away from the dancing teenagers and towards the quiet water, scanning the water with anxious eyes.
I'm sure she's fine, but just in case, I'll be here if she needs me. I take a step into the water, the cool feeling calming slightly as I wait for Flight to resurface.

When I see her surface, relief courses through me, all scary memories forgotten. As she reaches the shore, I smile slightly.
"I saw you get into the water," I say. Then, sarcastically, I add, "I don't know why, but that kinda worried me."
I smile placefully, kicking some water up at her shins. My eyes shine.
"And for your information, I was having fun! I thought I'd take a break and check on you," I say defensively.
Then, looking back and not seeing the boy, I feel lost, like I did when I first got here. Unsure of exactly what to do.
I look back at Flight, sure that the uncertainty is registering on my face.
"So... what are you going to do next?" I ask, looking back at the dancers again.
I think I see a flash of brown hair, but then I loose him again in the crowd. I bite my bottom lip, then turn back to Flight, a stone mask hiding my emotions, waiting for her answer.

I raise my eyebrows and roll my eyes.
"Well, you have fun with that," I say, shaking my head in slight amusement at her straight forwardness.
Then I look at the boy who's coming our way. Again, I roll my eyes, unable to hide my clear distaste.
Then, and idea comes to me. Usually, Flight's the one to leave me in tight situations. But maybe, just tonight, since we're at a party...
I give a small smile, taking a step farther into the water, deeper. My eyes regard the boy with a mocking interest.
"No," I say, my smile widening, "I don't know him. Probably looking for a girl to dance with."
I take another step back, my starlit eyes dancing playfully. "Too bad I'm not here. Looks like you have a change of plans."
I take to graceful leaps backward, so the water reaches my thighs. "Have fun!"
And with the I dive underwater, farther and farther, until I'm above my head, an area Flight wouldn't dare to follow me into. Then I tread water, my eyes above water and watching Flight, waiting to see how she'll react.
Oh, isn't revenge sweet?