Falling (open to all at rebel's base)
Mar 30, 2010 18:53:06 GMT -5
Post by Stare on Mar 30, 2010 18:53:06 GMT -5
I stare into the night, hundreds of thoughts flying through my head.
I'm on the first story roof, and I grab my knees and tuck them into my chin.
I should be out hunting, as long as I'm awake. But the only thing I can think of is my mother. I left her one note, and I try not to think about it that much. It told her not to come looking for me, and that she'd be much better off without me. It also told her to get a new job, so she could be happier.
But I'm not filled with sorrow, or pain. Just... kind of empty. During the day, around the others, I'm more lively.
But here, alone with my thoughts, I feel strangely numb.
I sigh and stare out as far as I can see at the neverending stars.
I wonder would Ari would think of me now. As a very odd, stupid little girl.
I stand up, ready to climb off the way I came.
I begin to take a step when the shingle below my foot slips. I gasp for breath as my back slams back down onto the roof. I scream as I begin to roll towards the edge of the roof.
I kick my feet out, trying to get a grip on the roof with my boots, but they're useless. I dig my fingers down, only to have them come back bloody.
And suddenly, I just give up trying to stop myself. I know I won't be able to stop myself, and it's no use hurting myself anymore.
I'm still screaming, though, when I stumble over the roof, my back to the ground.
I stare as the tree tops get smaller, and can't help but think of when I fell out of the tree and Ari saved me. It feels almost exactly the same.
But this time, he won't be saving me.
I feel the sudden impact of my back hitting the ground. Pain shoots through me, and my scream stops suddenly.
And then my head hit's the ground, and my world goes black.
OOC: Since I am leaving for two weeks, and tonight is my last night on the site, I'm posting this. So, she's not gonna wake up until I get back. So, reply like she's not gonna wake up for a while, okay?
I'm on the first story roof, and I grab my knees and tuck them into my chin.
I should be out hunting, as long as I'm awake. But the only thing I can think of is my mother. I left her one note, and I try not to think about it that much. It told her not to come looking for me, and that she'd be much better off without me. It also told her to get a new job, so she could be happier.
But I'm not filled with sorrow, or pain. Just... kind of empty. During the day, around the others, I'm more lively.
But here, alone with my thoughts, I feel strangely numb.
I sigh and stare out as far as I can see at the neverending stars.
I wonder would Ari would think of me now. As a very odd, stupid little girl.
I stand up, ready to climb off the way I came.
I begin to take a step when the shingle below my foot slips. I gasp for breath as my back slams back down onto the roof. I scream as I begin to roll towards the edge of the roof.
I kick my feet out, trying to get a grip on the roof with my boots, but they're useless. I dig my fingers down, only to have them come back bloody.
And suddenly, I just give up trying to stop myself. I know I won't be able to stop myself, and it's no use hurting myself anymore.
I'm still screaming, though, when I stumble over the roof, my back to the ground.
I stare as the tree tops get smaller, and can't help but think of when I fell out of the tree and Ari saved me. It feels almost exactly the same.
But this time, he won't be saving me.
I feel the sudden impact of my back hitting the ground. Pain shoots through me, and my scream stops suddenly.
And then my head hit's the ground, and my world goes black.
OOC: Since I am leaving for two weeks, and tonight is my last night on the site, I'm posting this. So, she's not gonna wake up until I get back. So, reply like she's not gonna wake up for a while, okay?