Pay Phone (Marr)
Jul 16, 2014 10:26:56 GMT -5
Post by * on Jul 16, 2014 10:26:56 GMT -5
Basically, I had two choises. Stay at his house where I could possibly get yelled at by some man I barely know and fussed at by that stranger he brought home or follow him out into the rain again. As if it was hard to choose, it would be him everytime. His voice though, telling me to 'Come on!' was also a deciding factor because it was just a last minute decision finalized by him as well. Just as we walk, I keep my distance but stay right with him. The rain had never stopped and that hot bath is totally useless now. Once again, with the fading sun, the drizzle keeps going.
"No idea... just away from my father." What the hell do I say to him now? How can I help him when he clearly doesn't want my help? I even get that vibe that he really don't even want me here right now. I should probably just head home. The thought still lingers in my head. I've caused him enough trouble today with bringing him home from the academy to tell him about this 'issue' and now he's already told his father. All in one day is a little too much to handle; for both of us.
He quickly look at me, at which point I can see his eyes. I never thought that someone's eyes could convey every emotion but with his, I do. I've never tried to look at someone else's in this way. Matthew's eyes are distinct then he is troubed or happy, or at the worst of times, angry. I've seen every spectrum. I just give a small nod when he tells me things could have gotten ugly if he had stayed. That I don't doubt, so I make no comment. I'm not going to try to solve things with words, but instead just listen to his.
By this time, the rains soaked through my hair again, making me wipe away at the strands sticking to my face. We just keep walking, until I notice the furrowed brow then his anger being released to the garbage can beside us. Instantly, I'm in shock when the lid clashes against the ground. I hate seeing him this angry and I feel so much to blame. "I'm sorry."
I should never have told him. I should have just kept it to myself until the last possible moment and wait it out. Wait until he would have noticed something different about my body or my actions. Would he even notice when he's too busy at the academy? The sudden outbursts of anger like that makes me wonder about how he'll do in his new role coming up. Will he keep this path? Will he run out on us? I stop in my tracks watching him continue to walk on. I'm trying to make a decision. Trying to understand him and his ways.
"I should probably just head home, Matthew." There. Decision made. At least for tonight, he'll be able to work through what's going on and possibly be able to handle his father without my being there. Besides, what's his father going to say when I come back there? That look in his eyes will surely tear me down with accusations. I'm the one that ruined his son's dreams. It's not like the guy even really likes me. Matthew... just be safe.
"No idea... just away from my father." What the hell do I say to him now? How can I help him when he clearly doesn't want my help? I even get that vibe that he really don't even want me here right now. I should probably just head home. The thought still lingers in my head. I've caused him enough trouble today with bringing him home from the academy to tell him about this 'issue' and now he's already told his father. All in one day is a little too much to handle; for both of us.
He quickly look at me, at which point I can see his eyes. I never thought that someone's eyes could convey every emotion but with his, I do. I've never tried to look at someone else's in this way. Matthew's eyes are distinct then he is troubed or happy, or at the worst of times, angry. I've seen every spectrum. I just give a small nod when he tells me things could have gotten ugly if he had stayed. That I don't doubt, so I make no comment. I'm not going to try to solve things with words, but instead just listen to his.
By this time, the rains soaked through my hair again, making me wipe away at the strands sticking to my face. We just keep walking, until I notice the furrowed brow then his anger being released to the garbage can beside us. Instantly, I'm in shock when the lid clashes against the ground. I hate seeing him this angry and I feel so much to blame. "I'm sorry."
I should never have told him. I should have just kept it to myself until the last possible moment and wait it out. Wait until he would have noticed something different about my body or my actions. Would he even notice when he's too busy at the academy? The sudden outbursts of anger like that makes me wonder about how he'll do in his new role coming up. Will he keep this path? Will he run out on us? I stop in my tracks watching him continue to walk on. I'm trying to make a decision. Trying to understand him and his ways.
"I should probably just head home, Matthew." There. Decision made. At least for tonight, he'll be able to work through what's going on and possibly be able to handle his father without my being there. Besides, what's his father going to say when I come back there? That look in his eyes will surely tear me down with accusations. I'm the one that ruined his son's dreams. It's not like the guy even really likes me. Matthew... just be safe.