Pay Phone (Marr)
Jul 13, 2014 7:24:22 GMT -5
Post by Jack Lexington on Jul 13, 2014 7:24:22 GMT -5
I'm alm for the time being. The storm outside still raging around the corners of our old home plus the warm water has settle my mind for a moment. I seem to have a soothing effect on Ky as well.
But the next things she says has my mind bubbling up again.
"For your sake Matthew, I'd better be a boy. I think you'd be lost if it was a girl. You're still learning to handle me, afterall. Though, it would be a great teaching tool. See what girls are like from the beginning. We're not all raised to be killing machines."
"I'm not worried about the killing machines but all the girly shit and female logic." I truly admit.
"You girls change your mood faster than the wind it's direction."
It's what I've always been worried about and that hasn't gotten much better. I can handle Ky but all other girls? Not so much. To think I'll have a little girl of my own is not making me happy.
"Fingers crossed."
I huff and step under the water after she's tried her best to repay the favor of the soapy rub. Closing my eyes I try to enjoy the feel of her touch as much.
The thought that the baby could be a girl is unsettling enough to make me a little tense though. I feel her hands on my chest, my stomach but my mind’s barely there. I’m sure otherwise I would have liked them to slip a little lower. Now I’m glad when she lets me step under the main stream.
She asks whether I want her to be around when I tell my dad so I open my eyes and turn towards her wiping my face clean from soap and water.
“It’s up to you.I don’t think he’ll be thrilled so if you want to evade that it’s fine. Some day you’ll have to face him though.”
I’m not sure how my father will react. My best guess is that he’ll yell and tell me I’m stupid. He might want to talk us out of it but for the most part he’ll probably just be disappointed.
“Up to you.”
Ky expresses the wish to stay like this for good but I shake my head. This is not the best state to be in. I’d rather master this situation and make sure we’re going to be fine. Being cosy with her will always be great but it’s not my main priority right now.
I’m somewhat glad when she decides to leave the shower a little before me because it gives me a chance to dwell on my thoughts alone. Maybe sort them out. How am I going to tell my father who was already disappointed by the fact that I was seeing a girl on a regular basis. Will he want me to leave her? Will he be supportive? Is he going to force me to quit the pk program and come back to his company?
I’m not sure. All I know is that I need to tell him before I loose my gutts.
I let the water run over my head lowering to against the pipe of the shower for support.
Maybe I’m making the wrong decision here but I can’t leave Ky high and dry. This is partly my fault and I’ve never been one to chicken out of hairy situations. This is a whole new kind of hairy though.
I take another 10 minutes to let the water soak me before I turn it off, wrap a towel around my waist and shave. It’s a ritual after showering that gives me a bit of routine in a day of unusual events.
When I come back to my room I find Kyanite sitting on my bed till wrapped in a towel so I point to the dresser. “Help yourself. They’re all a bit big but dry. Maybe you can stash a shirt or two here as well.”
Did I really just invited her to ‘partially move in’?
I roam through my dresser and toss her a white t-shirt.
Then I dropmy towel and start getting dressed as well. The storm is slowly dying down outside but when I turn at Ky I can still see it raging in her face.
"Don't worry so much. It's not going to help anything. We'll figure it out. Just like so far."
Then I sit down next to her in my boxers and take her hand.
"What do you need me to do? Hungry?"
But the next things she says has my mind bubbling up again.
"For your sake Matthew, I'd better be a boy. I think you'd be lost if it was a girl. You're still learning to handle me, afterall. Though, it would be a great teaching tool. See what girls are like from the beginning. We're not all raised to be killing machines."
"I'm not worried about the killing machines but all the girly shit and female logic." I truly admit.
"You girls change your mood faster than the wind it's direction."
It's what I've always been worried about and that hasn't gotten much better. I can handle Ky but all other girls? Not so much. To think I'll have a little girl of my own is not making me happy.
"Fingers crossed."
I huff and step under the water after she's tried her best to repay the favor of the soapy rub. Closing my eyes I try to enjoy the feel of her touch as much.
The thought that the baby could be a girl is unsettling enough to make me a little tense though. I feel her hands on my chest, my stomach but my mind’s barely there. I’m sure otherwise I would have liked them to slip a little lower. Now I’m glad when she lets me step under the main stream.
She asks whether I want her to be around when I tell my dad so I open my eyes and turn towards her wiping my face clean from soap and water.
“It’s up to you.I don’t think he’ll be thrilled so if you want to evade that it’s fine. Some day you’ll have to face him though.”
I’m not sure how my father will react. My best guess is that he’ll yell and tell me I’m stupid. He might want to talk us out of it but for the most part he’ll probably just be disappointed.
“Up to you.”
Ky expresses the wish to stay like this for good but I shake my head. This is not the best state to be in. I’d rather master this situation and make sure we’re going to be fine. Being cosy with her will always be great but it’s not my main priority right now.
I’m somewhat glad when she decides to leave the shower a little before me because it gives me a chance to dwell on my thoughts alone. Maybe sort them out. How am I going to tell my father who was already disappointed by the fact that I was seeing a girl on a regular basis. Will he want me to leave her? Will he be supportive? Is he going to force me to quit the pk program and come back to his company?
I’m not sure. All I know is that I need to tell him before I loose my gutts.
I let the water run over my head lowering to against the pipe of the shower for support.
Maybe I’m making the wrong decision here but I can’t leave Ky high and dry. This is partly my fault and I’ve never been one to chicken out of hairy situations. This is a whole new kind of hairy though.
I take another 10 minutes to let the water soak me before I turn it off, wrap a towel around my waist and shave. It’s a ritual after showering that gives me a bit of routine in a day of unusual events.
When I come back to my room I find Kyanite sitting on my bed till wrapped in a towel so I point to the dresser. “Help yourself. They’re all a bit big but dry. Maybe you can stash a shirt or two here as well.”
Did I really just invited her to ‘partially move in’?
I roam through my dresser and toss her a white t-shirt.
Then I dropmy towel and start getting dressed as well. The storm is slowly dying down outside but when I turn at Ky I can still see it raging in her face.
"Don't worry so much. It's not going to help anything. We'll figure it out. Just like so far."
Then I sit down next to her in my boxers and take her hand.
"What do you need me to do? Hungry?"