87th Bloodbath
Feb 20, 2021 14:24:00 GMT -5
Post by Azalea on Feb 20, 2021 14:24:00 GMT -5
d7f lenox lachance, flee
LENOX LACHANCE
I'm a survivor, if you can even call it that.
I know that I did not spend thousands of days losing my hope and finding it again, only to lose it all over again. I know that I did not expect to find a life here that would make me feel whole when this is nothing more or less than the nightmares I forced myself to walk for the past six years. The pressure of constant fear on my chest feels much stronger now than ever before, as if doom has a hand around my heart and is threatening to squeeze the blood from it.
Lex told me that I need blood to live, to keep my body moving and to keep my heart beating -- and the rest comes after that. And no, it would never be simple, it would never be easy and it would not always be good, but Ripred, I think I'm realising that I want to live as much as I've felt like I'm dying. And that determination to be alive is what fuels every one of my fears; turning corners shyly, holding my own hand because there's no one else, afraid of my shadow, scared of tomorrow.
Today, I want to live. Today, I have to remember to take things carefully and gently so that I can live in fear of tomorrow because that means I'm going to be able to see it and be alive for it.
Dawn always breaks on the same horizon. I have faith in that. I'll wait up tonight to make sure of it.
[ d7f lenox lachance flees helping and with the help of d3m fitz ]