you're a coward {nina stand alone}
Oct 1, 2021 6:53:04 GMT -5
Post by k!ah on Oct 1, 2021 6:53:04 GMT -5
n i n a h a r t .
"I was listenin' to the ocean
I saw a face in the sand
But when I picked it up
Then it vanished away from my hands, down"
It's okay, Nins, it's my turn to help you.
The words that would be burned into my brain for many lifetimes now haunt me as I stand before the Emerson's home. My hands are clenched into tight fists, and the desire to run, to flee like a petrified child fills me. It had been two days since my name had called, Aura stepping out in front of the gun which had a bullet with my name. The Emerson's were a family which had become something like my second family, my second home, and because of me, their only daughter was now preparing to enter a game of survival where the rate of survival was 1 in 24.
How was I supposed to face them?
How was I supposed to face them after I might have just assisted in the murder of their only child?
Teeth snag my lower lip, and I don't realize that I am chewing on it until I taste blood. Cursing I release the lip, come on Nina. You can do this. You can face them.
Taking a deep breath I take the first step, crossing the letterbox line. I take the next and the next until I am one step away from the door. Just knock. Just know and apologize profusely and beg them to forgive you, I needed them to forgive me because I simply needed them. Aura was like a sister to me and I wasn't ready to lose her, I couldn't lose her. I still needed her and I still needed them. After losing my mother I leaned on Mrs. Emerson, she treated me like her own, she loved me.
Loved.
I was already thinking in the past tense. Maybe they didn't blame me, after all, Aura was an annoyingly stubborn girl.
But I had seen the way Mrs. Emerson looked at me when Aurora stepped forward, I had seen the pain, the blame that burned within them as she screamed t me to fix this. And I had tried. I had begged the officials to take me instead, I had demanded a meeting with the escort, but I had simply just been turned away, there's nothing we can do, Miss, they kept saying, ushering me from the building.
there's nothing we can do, Miss
There was nothing I could do.
There wasnothing I could do.
Summoning my courage I take a deep breath, balling my hand into a tight fist I prepare to knock, my fist hovering barely a hair width from the surface. Knock, I command myself silently, my fist trembling. Knock. Knock, damn it, Nina.
"I can't," my voice trembles, tears blurring my vision as I fought to control my breathing, a familiar burning sensation in the back of my throat, a warning of the sobs that were about to consume me.
"I can't," I cry, turning and bolting down the pathway I sprint away from their home, my home. I run until the muscles in my legs burn, I run until my lungs give way and I am bent over, hands braced on my knees as sobs battle with my lung's need to consume air.
I was a coward.[word count: 537]