the sun burns red.— [double homicide (day three)]
Nov 3, 2021 0:33:13 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Nov 3, 2021 0:33:13 GMT -5
a b e l .
"because we
burn bright
our light leaves
scars on the sun."
I killed something.
I was proud of myself. I managed to get a bird in the fucking eye, do you know how hard that is? Then the guilt started to set in. Mutt or not, deadly or not, I was the one who ended that life. I felt my sins wash over me once we made camp. It was like I was being watched and judged. The guilt built more and more.
I got on my knees and I prayed for forgiveness. I confessed my sins to God and asked him to forgive me. Not just for the bird, for every sin I had committed before leaving home. And, I felt my guilt ease - even if some of it still remained. Because I knew God would forgive me. After all, he was the one who told me to do this. God wanted me to be here. And he knew that I would have to sin to complete his holy mission.
Before I got off my knees, I thought about Arthur and I prayed for him too. I prayed and asked God to forgive him for his sins. I was starting to realise something. Arthur Rollei was not inherently a bad person. He was not a demon in disguise. He was a lost soul, someone who simply was corrupted before he ever had the chance to find God's light. But, he was good deep down. Just like Prop was. And Six.
After I finished, I chugged some water and tended to the injury on my bicep. It wasn't too bad - I finished this fight quickly. I was still fine from yesterday so I didn't bother eating food quite yet. For now I had planned to eat every other day. I ended up dropping an antidote bottle while going through my items - shattering the bottle and spilling the contents everywhere. But, I found some firewood. Perfect for improvisation.
"Hey Arthur, can you find me some more firewood? I have an idea."
[ table by elegant ]
[ quote from "remember how we forgot" by shane koyczan ]
[ abel collects the following: (1) bundle of firewood ]
[ abel receives the following from arthur rollei: (2) bundle of firewood ]
[ abel creates javelins x2 using bundles of firewood x2 ]
[ abel drops the following items: one antidote (one remaining) ]
[ abel receives -3 leisure healing ]
[ abel uses first aid for -3 damage ]
[ abel uses one use of needle and thread for -5 damage ]
[ abel drinks his canteen of water ]
[ quote from "remember how we forgot" by shane koyczan ]
[ abel collects the following: (1) bundle of firewood ]
[ abel receives the following from arthur rollei: (2) bundle of firewood ]
[ abel creates javelins x2 using bundles of firewood x2 ]
[ abel drops the following items: one antidote (one remaining) ]
[ abel receives -3 leisure healing ]
[ abel uses first aid for -3 damage ]
[ abel uses one use of needle and thread for -5 damage ]
[ abel drinks his canteen of water ]