don't say goodbye.— [hermes/bear]
Dec 9, 2021 5:00:11 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Dec 9, 2021 5:00:11 GMT -5
I had to hold myself back the other night. Hold myself back from making anything between Bear and us official. He said he loved me, and of course I loved him back. He was my best friend. I can't remember a time before him. After all, he's always been the boy right next door. The boy who was always there for me. Even though I was going to be so far away in the Capitol - he was going to be there for me. For my family when I wasn't. And I wanted to thank him for it.
Last night when I met him at our usual spot I told him to come over for lunch at 1:00 pm. It was a couple minutes until and I was finally finishing up my preparations. I had been saving up money for something, even if I didn't know what. This seemed like a good time to use some of it. Make a filling meal for the two of us, and of course my family later tonight. But for now it would just be the two of us. My family knowing about us would only complicate things, they might not let me leave for the Capitol if they knew.
Young Love in Panem.
How ridiculous. But, they wanted to pay us and that's all that really matters, isn't it? And if they're going to pay anyone it should be someone who needs it. Not some career kid who spent their whole life with a silver spoon in their mouth. After all, this games has shown the difference between struggling and training. Look at how quick almost all of the careers died except that Nixie chick. Look at how far Cedric and Sinead made it. I feel like their deaths were planned. Capitol got tired of watching us poor people make something of ourselves.
The menu for lunch was a stew with bread. I bought the bread, but I made the stew myself. I may not be the best cook, but flavour isn't what we look for around here. Flavour won't keep you alive. We look for filling, warm, and relatively healthy. Stew checked all of those boxes. I filled up two small bowls with stew and stored the rest for later. I didn't want to get tempted and not leave any for the rest of my family.
I then split the bread between the two of us and got the spread I made. It's sort of like jam. I picked some berries from around the district and mashed them up until it became a paste. It was quick to do, but it took a lot of berries. This way though, the bread tastes better and it'll cover up some of the staleness of it. I tried to get fresher bread, but I'm not a millionaire. This would have to do.
I waited for Bear to come as I began to pace back and forth. The ring in my pocket felt like a boulder. What if he wasn't coming? What if he forgot? What if he was really mad at me for doing the show? I knew he was probably running a little late. Maybe he was helping one of his siblings with something or having a talk with his Ma or finishing up one of those jobs. When I have money, he'll never have to risk his life in one of those jobs again. I'll make sure of it.
