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fox Graphics 1,363 POSTS Pronouns: she/her last seen Apr 25, 2024 12:23:42 GMT -5 but a butt ?	aris, d4 — fin // cbd3 Jan 1, 2022 19:02:43 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by fox on Jan 1, 2022 19:02:43 GMT -5 aris morrisen eldest daughter type beat 18
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aris, d4 — fin // cbd3 Jan 1, 2022 19:15:03 GMT -5

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Post by fox on Jan 1, 2022 19:15:03 GMT -5

A R I S

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When Annie won,

I wondered if the same would be expected of me.

My father and mother had me young, and he would never say it was a mistake. He would not say that I was the reason he gave up those gilded dreams of power and the kind of glory for the books.

Some things don't need to be said, so obvious the way it's always a word, a gesture behind his speech, so present that a whisper would give it a body.

I draw pictures in the sand at dusk, my fingers rubbed raw on its coarseness. Saltwater fills the crevices and washes them away. And in my head, I go over the sparring match, the way my opponent slid from my grasp, her sword catching my shirt, another point lost – I think about how in the arena, I'd be dead.

What would I be if not

The first-born.

A Victor.

Admiration and jealousy are shades of the same feeling. So my first thought was, I guess, not of relief or commemoration when Annie won, but a small, hungry organ of trepidation. And it beat in me, endlessly, like another pulse.

And suddenly I couldn't just play these games – childish pursuits, carefree fun, swimming and hiding in the sand with my siblings. In my wrists, there's the sound of all that I have to lose.

Last Edit: Jan 1, 2022 20:50:26 GMT -5 by fox

Tom Moderator 5,143 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Apr 28, 2024 1:45:55 GMT -5 OowoO	aris, d4 — fin // cbd3 Jan 1, 2022 21:45:34 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Tom on Jan 1, 2022 21:45:34 GMT -5 I LOVE ARIS!
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