nectar and ambrosia.— [hermes/dionysus (YLIP)]

I didn't know what I was feeling when I looked at Dionysus.

I remembered him from the Hot or Not thing. Yeah he was attractive, but he was also a career. And all careers are the same. But I needed to be on their good sides if I was going to win this. Get that money to help take Ma to a good doctor, get my family out of the Seam. I needed to keep my priorities in mind. Not worry about careers. Careers that didn't need the money like I did.

But looking at him? It was hard to focus honestly. He was attractive as I said, but he almost made me feel... insecure? I didn't feel insecure, of course not. I know I'm not exactly ugly, at least by Twelve standards. But this wasn't Twelve anymore. He wasn't from Twelve. What was I in One? In the Capitol? I didn't want to think about that. I'm not an insecure person.

He seemed to just be looking around. The limo parade had just ended and for some reason they didn't even bother giving us a tour of the resort. I wasn't going to steal anything yet, I needed to first figure out where the cameras were and how to avoid being seen stealing. They'd have no problem kicking me out for that, this wasn't about kids from Twelve - it was about careers.

And so by associating with a career, I could make it about me. I approached him, a slight grin on my face, "Looking for anything in particular? Or are you just bored? Because personally I'm bored, and if there's one thing I hate, it's being bored. Hermes, pleased to meet you."

I just pretended I was talking to Bear. With Bear I felt charismatic and felt like I could be myself. Of course here I couldn't be totally myself. But I could be fun and make jokes and all of that. The fans would like it and the competition would like it. And that's what I needed. Because even if I didn't win, it gave me more time to steal shit to sell when I got home.

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