some sunny day | rave
Oct 24, 2022 22:18:50 GMT -5
Post by mat on Oct 24, 2022 22:18:50 GMT -5
h e a t h
under the guise
of greater good
you obey.
unwavering
You stare at the grained footage of a pilot giving step-by-step instructions to her flight cadet. The video that your academy officer shows is outdated and decaying from nearly a century of aging and rotating film in a cassette. It's a reminder of just how long your home has been caught up in the catacombs of the nation, defined by generations of perseverance and plotting revenge. You sit attentively, writing notes on the maneuvers that the pilot details with your fountain pen, curling each line to please your brain into thinking that you're one step closer to being done for the day.
Never really done though, are you, Heath? You don't know when to stop thinking about revenge. You're obedient to every instructor that passes your gaze. When the day comes to get on these planes and send hell down upon them, you want to be the one leading the charge. Being the hero has consumed you. The opportunity to rewrite history and take back some perspective keeps you locked one hundred years in the past. At night, when it's lights out in your quadrant, you everything through the lens of that grained footage. Black and white, fuzzy, with a million particles floating around the picture. It continues to your dreams, where you claw your way out from the vagueness towards a smiling face made of gold. You want victory. You want the release. How will it feel to finally be able to explore what the overland has to offer?
The thought of what tomorrow could be like leaves you in a chokehold in every aspect of today. You'll do your part to win the war, no matter how great the act of service is for your district. Whatever they ask of you, you can do. Anything less is a failure for a soldier.
The video before you stutters and flatlines, sealing itself shut at its conclusion. Your academy officer pulls the cassette out and sets it in her briefcase. You click your pen shut and rise up, walking over to the officer to thank her once again for her lesson. Feeling the thoughts of he's a kiss ass crawling up your back, you pull yourself away from gratitude and back to your belongings. Your books, pens, and highlighters fall into your satchel.
You strike up a conversation with a classmate beside you. "Nice stuff, huh? A little old, but hopefully we'll be able to film our own flights in the future."