in every universe, i'll love you /pietro one shots
Dec 30, 2022 19:00:05 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker kelsier on Dec 30, 2022 19:00:05 GMT -5
Bastard son, born from a bastard father born of a bastard too, you break the chain only because when your father lost his head, you became completely undesirable.
It seems that treason does more than just kill a man, but everything connected to him, like rot in the centre of a weirwood tree. There's nothing to do for a rot like that but raze the tree and all of its branches down to the ground before it can infect the forest.
So they came in the night, in the dark of it and they worked quietly. They built a funeral pyre around your family home and set it along with everyone inside aflame and then they waited for runaways with sharp eyes and pikes.
But you were far away then, fingers cold in the snow as you sat numb outside a tavern, a cap full of coin in your lap and a lute at your feet. That's where they found you.
You were never one of them until then, you were requested the last name 'Stone' to denote you as a bastard. There are hundreds of children out there like you and you're not special but you never took offence to that. Strange, you never thirsted for power, just enough coin to pay for a warm bed at night.
Sometimes you find a place to stay for a few days, you slip in amongst the many and make a home in sunlight and for a moment you get warmth, or at least a couple fingers of it. They pay you to sing your silly songs and perform your little tricks and you always know when to leave because you can tell when they're growing tired of you.
They always grow tired of you.
It was a short life but it was a good one. When the men approached from the alley beside you, then more from the north and east, you could taste the end of it on your tongue, like the bittersweet flavour of the last few hours of a summer that lasts a decade. One drew their blade but then another stopped him, seeing the lute at your feet.
"Give us a song," he said, voice cruel.
Give us a song before you die.
You gazed up at the men, amber fire still on your tongue from the sip of whisky you drank for warmth. You brought your fingers up to your mouth slowly and blew on them, working to make them usable before asking, "Have you heard the sacking of Mormont?"
That's how you found yourself in a cell in the sky castle rather than beheaded there in the snow last night. Through the journey there, hands tied behind your back in such a way that they felt like sand, the men told you in great detail what had happened to your family home. They spoke to you of your sisters, running from the flames, their blood in the snow after what they did to them. They told you of your mother, resolute, gazing down at them all from the top of the castle. They shot an arrow through her chest to bring her down.
"That's alright," you told them, "I was never her son."
And they looked at you strange, like you were the one who had killed her. When you shut your eyes, you can feel the string of a bow pinched between your fingers and you remember the way your muscles ached after the release.
But that was different, that was hunting rabbits with your brother, dead now too.
They tell you that you are the last of your kind because they want to hurt you with that knowledge but it doesn't move you. There was never a moment growing up when you weren't reminded of your uniqueness. They wanted you to be aware of it always, you were never one of them.
Now you are, when you're the last one left.
Your cell has one of the most incredible views that you've ever seen. With only three walls and a floor that slopes out into a sudden drop, thousands of feet high, you should be terrified.
You are, of course. It's so cold that you can't feel your fingers and yesterday the wind tugged at you so hard that unless you stayed curled up in a corner of your cell, it would have plucked your skinny frame off of the stone floor and carried you away.
Part of you wondered why you didn't just let it, it seemed like a sort of beautiful way to die in comparison to the horrors of what became of your family, but there's a peacefulness to your soul that most people will never know. Even here, with your impending doom not even a question, you are hopeful that things will go well.
You are fed three meals a day and allowed an hour in the evening to sit safely on the other side of the door to your cell, under supervision in the hallway to write more songs for the lord of the castle to listen to. You use the time to rest your eyes instead, days of half awake dreaming turning your waking moments into only half truths. It's hard to remember reality anymore.
When you shut your eyes you see a sandy beach that you've never been to before and a bonfire in the dark with a voice beside yours. You see two little girls that make your heart ache because they're not yours and never will be but you love them. At first only because he did.
The dream doesn't make sense, it feels more like a memory but you know that none of it is real. A life like that isn't for a bastard son like you but when you open your eyes, there are tears behind them and you wish for it.
A few times a week you are dragged from your cell to the high hall of the Eyrie to entertain the lord. He likes your bloody songs best or the one you singe about how the fortress could never be brought down. He likes when you pet his ego, dislikes the ones where you sing of love and peace and above all else, hates a happy ending.
"A traitor's end is never happy," he tells you, leaning heavily on one side of his throne.
"My father's was for me," you answer once without thinking.
The court titters at your quip and the Lord smiles down at you. "Denouncing your own father won't save you from your fate," he tells you.
"You're speaking to a bastard son," you say calmly, "My fate was decided before I was born."
After that night, you are allowed out of your cell for an hour in the morning as well. You lean against the door and eat cold porridge and tell your guard stories from all your wanderings. His name is Arlo and he takes a liking to you. "It's strange, most are driven mad by the sky cells but you've been in yours for weeks now," he tells you.
"I was already mad on arrival," you tell him with a grin like it's a joke, it's not, you've always been missing a vital piece of yourself.
For some time, that is just your life. Brief moments of clarity breaking up long hours in your cell, legs dangling over the edge, eyes on the horizon. You idly imagine a dragon flying over the crest of the mountains, coming to rescue you, but you're so inconsequential that it's something that could never happen to you.
The truth is, you've never really mattered much to anyone's story, least of all your own. It was always meant to be sort of sad, slow, dwindling into nothing. It always felt a little bit beautiful though, despite that. Even now, you feel like a small fleck of glitter in a vast sea and you aren't afraid.
Even on the night when you're pulled from your cell late one night and brought to the high hall into the last few hours of what must have been a feast. The lord is sitting low on his throne, his cheeks blushed from drink and there is a tense feeling in the air. Your feet stop for a moment, uncertain at the edge of the room but then you are being pushed forwards and you stumble to your usual performance spot in front of the throne, a guard beside you.
"Sing the one about Eyrie," the Lord tells you.
The room is silent and when you glance at the court, many of them are white-faced and trembling. The tension breaks your usual calm demeanour and your hands shake as you lift your lute to begin your song.
Lord and castle in the sky
how your enemies must sigh
a siege they can't hope to try
without the means to fly.
You finish the song after a couple of verses in similar fashion but as your last note rings out, you are only met with silence. Slowly, you lower the instrument to your side again, gaze fixed on the Lord sitting on his throne.
A hand falls on your shoulder, it's the guard, applying pressure, fingers curling over your arm, making it hard to move. You take a step back, heel finding free air, holding on to the stone with your toes alone.
"You were meant to fall from your cell a month ago at least," the Lord says, lazy in his tone thanks to drink. "Why hold on this long? You must know you only prolong your fate, no one is ever coming for you."
You gaze up at the man, your heart in your throat and you think about the long fall that has occupied all of your waking thoughts. The cold, the pounding rain, the wind, it's stolen two toes and your pinky finger from you, taken the loss change from your pocket and almost taken you as well countless times in your sleep.
You could have just let go so many times but you didn't.
"My existence is small but beautiful," you tell the lord, "And precious to me."
The court holds its breath as the Lord gazes at you coldly but then he grins slowly, throws his head back and laughs. "A pity," he says, "That was the funniest thing you've said yet."
Then he flicks his hand and the guard pulls the lute from your hand and pushes you backwards further by the shoulder.
You're weak, aching, with little fight left.
You stumble beneath the weight of the guard's hand, foot slipping on stone and then he's bending and your hands are wrapped around his wrist, clinging with every ounce of strength you have left. Your eyes are wide with the knowledge of it, with the horror of it and you look wildly about, searching for help before your gaze falls on
him,
the voice in the dark, there as a face in the crowd. Tears fill your eyes and slip down your cheek.
Then your hands are being pulled off the guard's and he has let go of your shoulder and there is nothing to hold on to. you are falling, staring up into a hole growing further and further away from you by the second.
The world slips by, the view that you've been staring at for months rising to meet you. The sun rises out of the dark, casting golden light on you, as if the gods want the world to see this moment.
You smile because even in your dying, you are so very alive.
And it's beautiful.