Hope Forever [Mathilda's Funeral Celebration]
Jan 5, 2023 23:29:51 GMT -5
Post by marguerite harvard d2a (zori) on Jan 5, 2023 23:29:51 GMT -5
Blackston Hope
When Blackston had heard the news that his dear grandmother had died, he couldn’t believe it.
Mathilda seemed like someone that was going outlive all the Hopes on sheer spite alone. His earliest memory of her was a dressing down of how his father had looked at some family dinner years ago. Did she use the word ‘worthless’ or was it ‘good-for-nothing’ to describe him? She spared nothing to make his father feel inadequate, which Blackston admired.
Mathilda knew how to rip someone apart in a god honoring way, which was to say she didn’t need to curse or call them names. She could simply describe them and their faults as they were, and how they could better themselves to truly make them behave.
The day of her funeral, he was all too happy to be the first person to speak. He would give his best to make sure God was present, and to honor her, too.
“When I was nine years old, Grandma Mathilda told me that I would never amount to anything in my life.” Blackston stood at the front of a banquet hall that had been rented out to honor his late, great grandma. A giant, imposing portrait hung on one side with flowers on the other. He adjusted the microphone at the podium and screeching feedback followed.
“She spent a lot of time telling me how there was nothing I was going to be able to do to achieve anything important. She told me my hair made me look like a clown. One time when someone asked her ‘which one is your grandson?’ She said, ‘the little gay boy’.” He licked his lips and stood too close to the microphone. His lip quivered and he failed to choke back the tears.
“… but I think in a lot of ways, Grandma Mathilda showed me how much she loved me through her strength. She knew all of us so well she didn’t have to praise us. She wanted us to live up to her standards, which were impossible.” He turned to look at the glare of her portrait and cleared his throat.
“Her mouth is full of wisdom; kindly teaching is on her tongue.” Blackston spoke the proverb and did his best to smile. “Grandma Mathilda, I know a lot of us are who we are today because of you. And I know that… wherever you are.. you’re making sure we all… live up to who you think we’re going to be.”
It was then he burst into tears, ugly crying into the microphone. Snot dripped out of his nose as he wiped his eyes. He turned left to head back to his seat only to knock into a set of white petunias. He turned back again and hit into the podium, sending more feedback out to the crowd. At last he found his seat to let the celebration continue.