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fox Graphics 1,363 POSTS Pronouns: she/her last seen Apr 25, 2024 12:23:42 GMT -5 but a butt ?	rowan, d10 fin Jan 24, 2023 21:44:37 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by fox on Jan 24, 2023 21:44:37 GMT -5 rowan searley fifteen
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rowan, d10 fin Jan 29, 2023 13:55:11 GMT -5

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Post by fox on Jan 29, 2023 13:55:11 GMT -5

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he has a hard time in school – shit, something about words that always messes him up, hand-to-pen or brain-to-mouth it never comes out right. the kids call him stupid and he plays along with it. it's okay because it's like he's part of the joke, and if he laughs then it's funny. then it's like he doesn't care.

it's fine because he has Luke and Lena and Andal.

plus, he meets like a new dog everyday at the scrapyard.

Ma doesn't let him take the tractor engine he finds into the house, yelling at him for dragging in dirt with his shoes. there's a rat living in it as it turns out. Luke is older so he gets the garage with Andal and so Rowan gets the shed. he lures the rat out with a stick of cheese and gets to work in between the shovels and the hammers.

over the years, he learns how to make a lot of things that get him into trouble. the leaf blower turned spray paint machine gets him grounded for six weeks, the longest yet.

life is fine like this. but then Andal gets reaped. the house feels funny and he spends a lot more time at the scrapyard and a lot more time in the shed. he finds a new dog one day, a tiny rag-tag guy, and he tilts his head and looks at Rowan in some strange way that kinda reminds him of his brother when he's doing something with his hands.

maybe it's the hair.

maybe it's because he misses Andal.

Ma doesn't let him bring any of his animals onto the ranch. she says they have enough mouths to feed. so he sneaks Andal Jr. into the shed by stuffing the dog into his jacket and zipping it up, strolling through the front door like it's totally normal. Andal Jr. shakes a little and whimpers softly.

they don't notice. or maybe they do notice but it's kind of hard to say anything in the house these days without it feeling like trying to swallow a ball of iron.

Ma doesn't let him watch the games. he sneaks glances when he's out of the house. he doesn't know what's happening entirely but he can see it on the faces of the kids at school. they stop bothering him when he trips over his words. maybe it's too mean to make fun of someone with a dying brother. who would've thought he'd prefer being called stupid.

but it's maybe worse than that. because Andal does come back. he returns with a new face and lives in their home and feels like a ghost in the halls. now he misses someone who's still alive, and somehow it feels more fucked up. Rowan tries to avoid looking at him. he starts thinking of the dog more as Andal than Andal as Andal, and he realizes this when Lena says his name at dinner and he his first thought is of the pup curled on his bed.

they move into the new house in the victor's village. Rowan asks if he can finally bring Fortuna and Meatball and Ernest and Bonecrusher and if Pepper can live in his room.

Ma lets them stay at the ranch at least.

the kids at school don't really say anything to him anymore. it probably has to do with the parts of the games that Ma forbid him from watching.

they kinda just stay clear of him. Suzie drops a pencil in math class and it rolls over to his shoe. he picks it up and tries to give it back to her but she flinches away from him.

and it's a lot harder to pretend everything's a funny little joke when it's like that.

Last Edit: Jan 29, 2023 18:24:19 GMT -5 by fox

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