needle and syringe // Xaa&Will
May 31, 2023 2:55:51 GMT -5
Post by minie on May 31, 2023 2:55:51 GMT -5
Other than the few intoxicated incidents, I was never the fighting kind. Not with my fists anyway. I paved my path with secrets and lies. Physical pain is short and sweet, it goes away after time. The terrors of psychological warfare were not as kind. There was no other feeling like the one of knowing you had the upper hand. Glances across a room, words exchanged only in your expression. None of that was going to be enough in these games.
The perfidy of my family stung deep, made me loose sight of what was yet to come. The train ride here was spent in an embarrassing state of self-pity. It was not my own commiseration that would get me far, but that of those who surrounded me. I needed them to understand who they had amongst their ranks, what life they were unjustifiably stealing. My life was one that mattered more than most people would ever comprehend. These games would not be my downfall.
Only days ago, the occasional wish to be amongst the people in the club overtaken by primal instincts was a fantasy dear to my heart. In shocking turn of events, I would rather not spend another moment grouped with the rest of the population. There was nothing glamourous about wearing the same training outfit as everyone else, nothing electrifying about being just another face in the crowd, nothing exhilarating about practice combat.
Fallen from grace, I stood in the training center with my arms folded, examining the room and the people stuck in a similar situation. Only difference, I was going to make it out. How was I going to make it out? The same way my family was built, the blood and hard work of others. There were undeniable qualities I brought to the game, but I needed a fighter. Someone who knew what they were doing, someone who could teach me how to get blood on my hands when the time came.
The easy option would be a career, but what fun would that be? They could bite my head off in seconds, trained killing machines come with pre-determined settings. Those settings were a danger. I would know; a liability always recognized another liability. Glancing across the room, spied with my little eye a girl from district 12. Poverty created survivors; the type of people that could be molded into something useful. With a target locked, I made my way over ready to sell my poison.
”All this must be intoxicating for you, my dear” I let the words slither out of my mouth as I approached her, ”Care to bargain with a devil?”