supermix — arcadia & dante
Jul 10, 2023 0:29:23 GMT -5
Post by lucius branwen / 10 — fox on Jul 10, 2023 0:29:23 GMT -5
D A N T E
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Derek asked me why I insist on going to house parties when I hate them. What else am I supposed to do? Take up bird watching?
Ripred. Men don't understand shit.
In the great wilderness of girlhood, I search for my first kiss. And where else do people senselessly make out except the basement of some exy player's house? So I'm trying to not die as a virgin, sitting on this mysteriously damp couch, attempting to telepathically communicate desire to the nearest decently looking person.
Derek's off at who knows where doing who knows what. Tatton's late again because it's principally impossible for her to be on time. And I mean that like it's the fourth law of motion.
My drink tastes like melted ice and vodka now. Gross.
It feels like I've been sixteen forever, trudging through the tedium of life. And I wanna know how I'm already so tired only half way through high school. I've puked and I've cried and not even one damn kiss to show for it.
I feel cursed. Like, cosmically. But I think if I had sex, then my life would be substantially better. I mean, people who fuck seem to be pretty happy, right? Or at least they don't spend their time wondering why is it that they don't fuck? Are they too boring to bang? Are they going to die an unloved, insignificant, uninteresting loser? Or worse, are they (oh god) ugly? Am I actually just hideous?
I think I'm drunk.
I gotta go outside for a second.
So I walk towards the door, and time is weirdly elastic now. One moment I'm in the basement, and the next I'm outside, hit with the fresh air of late spring. Everything has this lag to it, the colours of the street dragging through my vision, and I guess I don't see her until I'm smacking my forehead on something solid.
"Oh shit, I'm sorry –"
My head is throbbing. I think I'm blinded for a sec when all I see is blonde.
She turns around. I see a face, and I think I'm gonna throw up.
Arcadia fucking Lumiere damn FRAY.
Oh my god?? I did not know she was back from the Capitol. I did not know that minor celebrities just freakin showed up at post-exy game parties in the suburbs without some kind of red carpet rollout. And I'm not going to lie, I watched a lot of thirst edits of her from YLIP. An ungodly amount.
Haha. "Wow, ummmmmm," I need to say something. She's right there. I am being perceived. "Hope my head wasn't too hard!" Ahahaha. What the fuck. No like what the fuck.