deadly arrogance [ xov x lionel ]
Feb 1, 2024 8:47:37 GMT -5
Post by k!ah on Feb 1, 2024 8:47:37 GMT -5
l i o n e l .
* * *I, Lionel Estrada, was a natural born charmer. No, correction, I had to work my ass off to become the charming specimen that I was today. Through trial and error I had learnt the perfect smile, the perfect phrase and the perfect gesture required to win people to my side. I had made sure that I was the perfect tool for my father to wield, so desperate for him to notice me. Really notice me. And I had believed that one day he would. That he would finally shower me with the recognition that I truely believed I deserved.
And yet, it would seem that I would die chasing after something that I knew deep down my father would never relinquish.
So from the moment I had walked into the training center this morning I had thought screw you all, and all good intentions of becoming the charming perfect little tribute from Five that would have made daddy Estrada so fucking proud, not that I knew what that would look like, had been shedded like a second skin and for the first time in years I felt a weight lift from my shoulders and I could breathe.
And I think for the first time in my life I had a glimpse into the lifestyle that Wren had embraced for freely and I suddenly felt like I could understand him. Which annoyed the fuck out of me, because all my life I had resented him for his carefree nature, and desire to do whatever the hell he wanted, knowing that I could never be free like him.
But it would seem I was free from my shackles and as I strutted through the training center with my shoulders pulled back like some arrogant fool, I felt that freedom embrace me and it felt amazing and so very dangerous.
From the corner of my eye a flash of movement catches my attention and I turn to watch the pretty, if not a little scrawny, tribute from twelve tragically fail to land her dart on the board a few feet away. Brows raised I casually lean against the bench beside the station where sets of darts had been arranged for tributes to use. She throws another dart and it sails past the board, cluttering useless to the ground.
A low whistle escapes my lips, my eyes studying her carefully. "That was truly pathetic, sweetheart." Pushing off the bench I close some of the distance between us as a grin tugs at my lips, "I believe that the aim is to actually hit the target. Though I could be wrong... But thats unlikely, because I am never wrong." Leaning forward I gently pry her fingers off the dart that she had been clutching, a little too tightly if I was being honest. "Your holding it wrong," I start to explain as though I had all the experience in the wold with the game of darts. Which I didn't. But how hard could it be? Surely not as hard as the girl made it out to be.
"Its all about the grip, darling, you gotta hold it like you mean it. Let me show you," I say as I turn to face the board. With a flick of my wrist I send the dart flying, and to my god damned relief it its the board, not a bulls eye but on the outer edge of the second ring. Not perfect, which irked me because after years of trying to be perfect, it was hard to let go of the need to be just that: perfect.