On the Precipice [Izzy Bennet/Day 4/Open]
Nov 7, 2024 20:59:20 GMT -5
Post by Izzabel Bennet D8A (Jorg) on Nov 7, 2024 20:59:20 GMT -5
Baby and I gather distance between us and the bodies of Kristof and Cynder as a cacophony of cannons shoot out throughout the Arena. I don’t count, not wanting to know how much blood has been shed today. I already know that Baby that Baby has to die if I’m going to make it out of here, but that doesn’t mean I can’t show her kindness in her last days. I may have actually wanted to kill Kristof, but I’m not without empathy.
“You’ll be ok,” I repeat softly, unsure if I’m talking to myself or to Baby. Some sort of parental instinct kicks in when I see how many young kids are in the Arena this year. And I can’t help but wonder if it’s because I can’t help but compare them to my sisters. Cynder reflected the same naivety that Lyndsey and Kat have, but who in the Arena reflects the plainness of Mary, or the inability to see any negatives like Janae?
As I continue to think about my sisters and my family, I can’t help but feel like a weight has been lifted off of me. Cynder tried her best, and surprisingly showed how strong she can be in the right circumstances, but now I don’t have to worry about what the others around me are doing. I don’t have to worry about how the actions of my sisters and my mother reflect back onto me. I don’t have to play clean up after them. I can focus purely on me.
It took two weeks of training and four days in a death games to finally feel free, and I’m conflicted by the feeling. Being my own person is want I wanted, no? So why do I feel like a monster for breaking free from the ones who hurt me the most?
I take a moment to sit down quietly, looking up towards the setting sun. The heat of the battle clings onto my skin, exasperating the dew drops that formed in the morning. Sweat and water flush out my cuts in painful bliss, a demented reminder that I’m still alive, still breathing in this twisted fantasy escape. I look towards the tower that looms over the Arena, and I can’t help but think I’m seeing things towards the top.
“What’s up there?” I ask aloud, unsure if Baby is still with me or not. It would be nice to have company for her be more night, but I did actively try to kill her District partner with the knives she gave me. Even though I didn’t get the last blow.[DARS]
Izzabel attempts to climb the tower
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